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For 06... i give up... i officially resign from the world. Im a loner ha go figure i tried to change that but now im just goin to accept it cuz it is who i am. My heart will be guarded and i cant change that because there isnt much left there after all the heartache i went thru this past year and then add to that losing my bestfriend of 4 years hahahahah you would think i would have rolled over and died already right? nope im still here facing the bullshyt of everyday life. The only person im in love with is my mother. I pray to God everyday that he keeps her here with me. If i lost her i dont kno what i would do. She made me promise her that if anything happened to her that i would create a fund to help underprivileged kids and name it after her. And i will regardless because thats how much this woman means to me. She will always be the woman of my life and that will never change so fuck everyone else. I only have about 3 tru friends and most ppl dont even know how close we are which is good because it weeds out all the bullshyt that ppl cause between friendships. As for a boyfriend? ha i can do bad all by myself and honestly maybe its better that way. Im not looking for anymore friends and im not taking applications for a man either! i came into this world by myself and im leavin here that way cuz im really the only one i can depend on. I cant even depend on some of my family like how sad is that? but i deal and i live a good life so cant complain i eat i have a place to rest my head in just about every boro so for now im gonna be okay.
P.s. I was nice even to ppl who i shouldnt have been nice to... times have changed cuz i was too nice for too long... play wit my emotions and think shyt wont go unnoticed and karma is a bigger bitch than me lol =)
P.s. I was nice even to ppl who i shouldnt have been nice to... times have changed cuz i was too nice for too long... play wit my emotions and think shyt wont go unnoticed and karma is a bigger bitch than me lol =)