WHY!??
OMFG could life be any worse than this moment right here?! Why am I letting everything get to me? NO IM NOT PMSing! Thanks for asking! Gosh this whole stinkin world is filled with nothing but hypocrites and psychos! Right now I feel like my world is crumbling in all around me! Last night I get into a disagreement aka beef wit one of my guy friends girlfriend. Then all of a sudden his page is deleted. I sure hope he calls to explain to me wat the fuck is going on. But that’s not he worst of it I call my “bestfriend” (im using the term more lightly now because it seems as tho we are growing apart and its becoming unfixable) and talk to him about it he tells me “don’t pay attention to it… talk to u later bye” WTF? I don’t get a “baby its goin to be okay… I love u goodnight”? I swear he is becomin an emotionless jerk-off! Im just so thru with me being there for everyone and then when its my turn to hurt I have no one to turn to? No emotional support system??? I need to find more strength in myself and stop depending on people cuz no one in this world gives two shyts! But it was calming to talk to Marcel for a while before going to bed. I WUV HIM he is funny and has the same feelings I do about the world… it sucks! I need to get away or just have a spa treatment. Something has got to give cuz this shyt is fuckin ridiculous! Oh by the way I <3 lauren tryin to be there for me via internet while fallin in love too cute always kno im happy for u my sexxxi irish princess even if my world is being sucked into a black hole :-/