Birthday
Happy Birthday Mackenzie.
5 years ago today I held that little baby girl in my arms and had no idea how much she would change me and change my life. Our first born babe was a beautiful girl when she was born and she was as alert as you could ever imagine. Everytime someone held her she looked them straight in the eyes and it was like she could see right through you.
Well, she did see right through me. She saw through me and wrapped that little hand around my heart and hasn't let go since. She's grown up so fast, but that one thing has not changed about her. I tell people that the moment I held her in my arms, something between her and I clicked and I knew I'd spend the rest of my life loving this little girl with every fiber of my being.
From the spitting up every time she ate, to the diapers, first Christmas, Easter, Halloween, etc. I watched this baby grow up to be this amazing little girl that I'm so proud of.
She's been there through the worst parts of my life and the best parts of my life. When Shannon and I were happy, and when Shannon and I were fighting, there she was. Always there, always knowing, always understanding and always loving.
When Shannon left me the first time and I got on my knees and cried, it was Mackenzie that wrapped her little 2 year old arms around me and held me as I cried and patted my back and comforted me.
When Shannon left me for good, it was always Mackenzie, letting me know how much she loves me and how much she missed me that made me realize...things will be ok. It was always her that was there in my mind. Vaughn was too little at the time to realize or to know much, so it was Mackenzie that got me up and back on my feet.
Such responsibility for such a little girl, and I hated to let her do it, but she would have it no other way.
She made me realize that I am a good parent, she'd cry when she left my house and scream for me, and though it tore my heart out, it made me realize that for all the things I've done wrong in my life, here was one thing I had done right.
She's in Kindergarten now and I've seen amazing changes in her already. She's so smart, and combine that with being funny, goofy, and beautiful, she's going to make one amazing adult. One that I can be proud to have raised and brought into this world. Part of me can't wait to see the adult that she will become and part of me is scared to death of the day that she grows up and doesn't rely on her daddy as much anymore.
But no matter what, I know that I've done a good job. Hell, we've done a good job. Shannon is great with her and as I've said before, no matter what happened, I couldn't have picked a better woman to have kids with.
5 years old already. It's not much, but wow, what a milestone and where has the time gone? I remember it all like it was yesterday and to have seen that beautiful baby girl grow up into this amazing little girl has been the triumph of my life so far. One of two actually, the other is this beautiful little boy that is sleeping right next to me.
I love them so much and I'm so proud of them. Watching them grow and learn is the one thing that no matter how sad or angry I am can bring a smile to my face.
Happy Birthday Mackenzie Rae. I love you with all my heart and soul.
5 years ago today I held that little baby girl in my arms and had no idea how much she would change me and change my life. Our first born babe was a beautiful girl when she was born and she was as alert as you could ever imagine. Everytime someone held her she looked them straight in the eyes and it was like she could see right through you.
Well, she did see right through me. She saw through me and wrapped that little hand around my heart and hasn't let go since. She's grown up so fast, but that one thing has not changed about her. I tell people that the moment I held her in my arms, something between her and I clicked and I knew I'd spend the rest of my life loving this little girl with every fiber of my being.
From the spitting up every time she ate, to the diapers, first Christmas, Easter, Halloween, etc. I watched this baby grow up to be this amazing little girl that I'm so proud of.
She's been there through the worst parts of my life and the best parts of my life. When Shannon and I were happy, and when Shannon and I were fighting, there she was. Always there, always knowing, always understanding and always loving.
When Shannon left me the first time and I got on my knees and cried, it was Mackenzie that wrapped her little 2 year old arms around me and held me as I cried and patted my back and comforted me.
When Shannon left me for good, it was always Mackenzie, letting me know how much she loves me and how much she missed me that made me realize...things will be ok. It was always her that was there in my mind. Vaughn was too little at the time to realize or to know much, so it was Mackenzie that got me up and back on my feet.
Such responsibility for such a little girl, and I hated to let her do it, but she would have it no other way.
She made me realize that I am a good parent, she'd cry when she left my house and scream for me, and though it tore my heart out, it made me realize that for all the things I've done wrong in my life, here was one thing I had done right.
She's in Kindergarten now and I've seen amazing changes in her already. She's so smart, and combine that with being funny, goofy, and beautiful, she's going to make one amazing adult. One that I can be proud to have raised and brought into this world. Part of me can't wait to see the adult that she will become and part of me is scared to death of the day that she grows up and doesn't rely on her daddy as much anymore.
But no matter what, I know that I've done a good job. Hell, we've done a good job. Shannon is great with her and as I've said before, no matter what happened, I couldn't have picked a better woman to have kids with.
5 years old already. It's not much, but wow, what a milestone and where has the time gone? I remember it all like it was yesterday and to have seen that beautiful baby girl grow up into this amazing little girl has been the triumph of my life so far. One of two actually, the other is this beautiful little boy that is sleeping right next to me.
I love them so much and I'm so proud of them. Watching them grow and learn is the one thing that no matter how sad or angry I am can bring a smile to my face.
Happy Birthday Mackenzie Rae. I love you with all my heart and soul.