I am terrified.
And I need to get this out, capture the feeling.
I am fucking terrified.
I have to get blood drawn tomorrow.
I am five years old right now, except that Dad never really was much good at comforting and Mom would smother me and hell's bells, I'm 34 years old anyhow. I shouldn't be feeling like I'm 3 feet tall and powerless to change the world I live in. I am not prey- if anything, I am a predator. What the fuck is wrong with me?
Why am I so fucking stupid about this?
I am fucking terrified.
I have to get blood drawn tomorrow.
I am five years old right now, except that Dad never really was much good at comforting and Mom would smother me and hell's bells, I'm 34 years old anyhow. I shouldn't be feeling like I'm 3 feet tall and powerless to change the world I live in. I am not prey- if anything, I am a predator. What the fuck is wrong with me?
Why am I so fucking stupid about this?