Soon...
Knowing that I am actually 2 months from coming back to Butte, I am forcing myself to not get excited. When that time finally comes, it will be close to 18 months since I've been there. So I am trying to not expect what things should be like when I get back.
I have mental images of what things were like when I left, and an idea of who people were. But I know that these are outdated...
I have witnessed from the outside some of the changes that people have made. Just a viewing from afar. I've been a postcard tourist in people's lives since I left. I see some pictures and get some printed text. But they have that same role in my regards.
My intentions are mixed. Part of me wants to go back looking for conflict, maybe seeking a more direct form of closure.
... i wished i could form cohesive thoughts and translate them into text...
I have mental images of what things were like when I left, and an idea of who people were. But I know that these are outdated...
I have witnessed from the outside some of the changes that people have made. Just a viewing from afar. I've been a postcard tourist in people's lives since I left. I see some pictures and get some printed text. But they have that same role in my regards.
My intentions are mixed. Part of me wants to go back looking for conflict, maybe seeking a more direct form of closure.
... i wished i could form cohesive thoughts and translate them into text...