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I've had this weird feeling all day. It's kinda like something isn't right in the world. Perhaps something isn't right in my life and I'm unhappy about it. Like most of the time my mind has drifted off and it's doing it's thing without informing me what it is. But I just got the message. Yes just now at 3 in the a.m. I feel broken-hearted. I recognize this feeling. It's not something that happens often but when it does it's usually pretty strong.
This weekend I decided to give up on Magic after an extremely disappointing pair of tournaments. Coming in the top 20% isn't good enough for me and it's never going to get any better than that because I am the most unlucky Magic player that this world has ever seen. Since I can't DO anything about being unlucky I'm never going to be better than 'really good but not a tourney winner'. When you can't get any better and where you are isn't good enough for you it's time to hang it up. So now that I've given up my hobby, my passion, I feel broken-hearted. Strange and I gotta say, kinda scary. Who the hell gets broken-hearted from giving up their hobby?
I guess I gotta find something else to fill the void. Maybe I'll go back to dating. There's something else I can pour lots of time and money into with very disappointing returns. Hey I got it! Let's take a survey.... WHAT SHOULD I DO WITH ALL MY NEW SPARE TIME AND MONEY?
This weekend I decided to give up on Magic after an extremely disappointing pair of tournaments. Coming in the top 20% isn't good enough for me and it's never going to get any better than that because I am the most unlucky Magic player that this world has ever seen. Since I can't DO anything about being unlucky I'm never going to be better than 'really good but not a tourney winner'. When you can't get any better and where you are isn't good enough for you it's time to hang it up. So now that I've given up my hobby, my passion, I feel broken-hearted. Strange and I gotta say, kinda scary. Who the hell gets broken-hearted from giving up their hobby?
I guess I gotta find something else to fill the void. Maybe I'll go back to dating. There's something else I can pour lots of time and money into with very disappointing returns. Hey I got it! Let's take a survey.... WHAT SHOULD I DO WITH ALL MY NEW SPARE TIME AND MONEY?