Relationship problems
My boyfriend has just made me incredibly unhappy.I fo9und out that he doesn't talk to me...or I should say trust me enough to talk about his problems and now he is just going to run away from them. Something is going on with his family so he is moving out of state. I don't even know what to think; I feel like hitting him, screaming at him, and comforting him all at the same time. The sad thing is I was trying not to get myself attached to him so that when he went to basic training in March I wouldn't care so much that he was leaving. It seems though that I let it happen without even knowing it. I'm sitting here barely even holding back from crying because of what he is doing to me and hating him while at the same time wishing there was something i could do for him. All my thoughts are jumbled and racing around inside my head. I just don't know what to do. I want to tell him to just stay in California and work things out but I don't want him to have to just stay and bare it for me, I want him to just be happy and work it out however he sees fit even if I don't agree with whatever he chooses. I just wish that i could do something to help him but I can't because he won't let me. The most patronizing thing about all this is the fact that I am still worried about myself and how I am going to handle this. I feel like dying right now for being so stupid to think that this time was going to be any different than any other time. The most ironic thing is that it's not me that got afraid or freaking out it's the guy this time. That thought makes me want to cry even more and laugh at myself because I am always talking about kharma and everything but I totally never thought I did anything that could come back to me and yet here I am feeling just as bad as any guy I ran from because of my own issues.