family
So Saturday was my mom's birthday, and I had been looking forward to visiting before work greatly.
I happily walked to the soap store in the next town over Wen to get her some hand lotion, tea, and soap.
I had felt a bit guilty I haven't visited her/Evelyn in about 2 months, so it was all together going to be a day of several purposes and hopefully some rare happiness.
Friday night before, she calls me at work, and tells me my sister is in jail, she got caught shoplifting makeup at Wallmart. Says if she had not gone there, CPS would have taken Evelyn. I'm amazed and angry. We keep saying hopefully she would fuck up again and the authorities might get involved this time, and now that she does, Mom borrows money from my aunt to bail kristen out of jail. She still owes mom the money from LAST TIME she was in jail a year ago.
I get so angry at mom, though try not to express it, angry that my sister is fucking up again, angry mom is bailing her out, angry mom's birthday is tainted, and angry she asked me to stay the night there so she could get kristen early. (I said no)
Long story short I got really drunk and slept in all morning instead of going over. Mom called at 12:47, and said 'your not coming over? Fine" and today she sounded like she was trying not to cry. I know I hurt her really really bad, especially not calling and at least saying I wasn't coming over, but I was afriad I'd be angry in front of her and make it worse. I felt there was no good way to attend the situation, thanks Kristen. I ended up staying home doing not much of anything since it was too late to go over at that point. I felt like I was pushed to the side again and did not want to be around her lest I say something I regret.
I still feel bad, I had told her multiple times I'd go over, but she has said multiple times she would stop bailing Kristen out.
I happily walked to the soap store in the next town over Wen to get her some hand lotion, tea, and soap.
I had felt a bit guilty I haven't visited her/Evelyn in about 2 months, so it was all together going to be a day of several purposes and hopefully some rare happiness.
Friday night before, she calls me at work, and tells me my sister is in jail, she got caught shoplifting makeup at Wallmart. Says if she had not gone there, CPS would have taken Evelyn. I'm amazed and angry. We keep saying hopefully she would fuck up again and the authorities might get involved this time, and now that she does, Mom borrows money from my aunt to bail kristen out of jail. She still owes mom the money from LAST TIME she was in jail a year ago.
I get so angry at mom, though try not to express it, angry that my sister is fucking up again, angry mom is bailing her out, angry mom's birthday is tainted, and angry she asked me to stay the night there so she could get kristen early. (I said no)
Long story short I got really drunk and slept in all morning instead of going over. Mom called at 12:47, and said 'your not coming over? Fine" and today she sounded like she was trying not to cry. I know I hurt her really really bad, especially not calling and at least saying I wasn't coming over, but I was afriad I'd be angry in front of her and make it worse. I felt there was no good way to attend the situation, thanks Kristen. I ended up staying home doing not much of anything since it was too late to go over at that point. I felt like I was pushed to the side again and did not want to be around her lest I say something I regret.
I still feel bad, I had told her multiple times I'd go over, but she has said multiple times she would stop bailing Kristen out.