I don't know how I feel

[darkviewoflife]

You signed on tonight, I couldn't help wanting to talk to you.  I miss you but I don't know that I could handle being friends.  Right now with all this stress I can't handle just one more thing.  I miss you so much but I don't know, I'm in so much pain when I think about you.  I don't want to admit it but I doubt it would ever work in the future, maybe.  It depends on how much of this disappears and how much of this sticks around.  I really need someone I can be close with right now. But I don't have anyone, the people I usually have are having their own problems.

Too many things make me think of you, I miss you so much

Edit: And yet when you talk to me, after I get over that initial gut wrenching pain I think maybe this could work out.

I hate myself