Obscurities
Basically, they are what makes life interesting. It's funny to just think of general things in your life, random things that you never ponder until you're kind of just sitting there with nothing to do. Like, how I just realized I'm pretty much vegan. Earlier I was getting food and it's already known that I don't eat meat and haven't in several years, but I don't necessarily consume other dairy products either. I hate milk so I only drink Silk Soymilk, which I really only use for my cereal, and I've always hated eggs. I eat Soy ice cream because the regular taste of ice cream is a bit too milk-like for me, and I'm not even lactose-intolerant. I don't eat cheese anymore because I got sick of the mad heart burn it gives me(is that a sign of lactose-intolerance? At least I don't get extreme gas and grossness like that). Really, the only dairy that I consume is butter, and that's practically never because I find it to be one of the most grotesque things you can spread or incorporate into your diet. Except once in a while though, and that's only with the real butter, not that gross Country Crock stuff that's one molecule away from being plastic.
I don't know, just random facts like that cross my mind sometimes. Life's been very good to me lately, it's great. Tyler is my best friend, for sure, no matter what. We've gotten along so well lately and it's nice. He's thinking about moving to South Carolina and going to school there. He went on vacation this week with his family and loves it there so much. He hasn't told anyone except me and his father about his plans, but I really hope he goes through with them. I would be so proud of him, he needs to get out and see different places and really GO somewhere with his life. It would be such a great experience for him.
I'm very content with my transfer to West Ranch and thankful for all of my friends. They're all just so chill. I am also thankful for my teachers. Getting up for school in the morning isn't such a drag anymore. I really do believe I have some of the best teachers out there, and being someone who values education greatly, I couldn't ask for anything more.
I've come to realize love itself is one of life's biggest obscurities. It's very interesting. It's funny when people ask me if I've ever been in love. I tell them yes, and shoot the question right back at them. Then I ask them to define their love for me, and they ask the same of me. My definition is always so different. It doesn't involve any of the jealousy that their's corresponds with. And when they ask me where he's at or what he's doing, and then question how I feel about it, I just tell them I'm happy, so happy for him. I'm glad that he is happy, alive, healthy and well, and doing whatever it is that makes him happy. Simply. And they ask me, "Really? You aren't jealous of him having a girlfriend or sad about the fact he's not yours?" Of course I'm not jealous, that's not what love is about. Jealousy isn't my nature, most times I don't even care enough about a person to be jealous of what they have, and I don't believe people should be jealous of each other, nobody is better than anyone. But I'm not jealous, because seeing him happy is enough for me. And if him not being with me is what makes him happy, then shit, more power to him. As long as he is happy, I'm fine. Loving someone isn't about what you can get in return, but nobody ever really realizes that; love is about what you can give, and being able to have that power to give while expecting nothing in return is the greatest feeling ever. There's also the factor that I just have faith, and know that I'm not feeling this for nothing. If something happens someday then cool, but if not, I'm content with where I'm at right now. Honestly, love isn't about you and what you want. When you truly love someone, you'll come to see that the happiness you feel is ignited by the person's happiness that you love, and you couldn't ask for anything more or anything less, because being able to just feel love is enough. He opened my eyes, so I'm greatful for that, always. And this is true: I've never loved another person as much as I love him, and I cannot fathom another person ever being able to love him as much as I. Hunter's pretty amazing.
One last thing: Sex and the City is so good. Haha, I never thought I would be into a show with such a title. It's really good though. If someone got me the complete DVD set containing every season for Christmas or my birthday, I would be the happiest camper. Also, Adriana Lima is still the most beautiful human being to graze this planet. And, my user name is funny. Darkvelvetstar... haha damn, I've had this thing for so long.