the Truth
There's no blame for how our love did slowly fade
And now that it's gone, it's like it wasn't there at all
And here i rest where disappointment and regret collide
Lying awake at night
--.Death
.Cab
.For
.Cutie.
Dear Lord, i do love that band. Transatlanticism is one of the greatest albums i've ever had the pleasure of listening to. And that song describes my dilemma. I'm in love with Him. Plain and simple. And what i've learned in these past 2 weeks is nobody will ever be able to compare or live up to the standards i set except for Him, because he IS the standard.
It's not the same. I haven't written a single love poem about him, while i have half a book written about Him.
It's a tragic situation, but what am i going to do? One thing i've learned, though, is that nobody is worth it. For the next four years, boys will come and go, but i can't take anything seriously at all, because i know i've got someone waiting for me and in the end He's all that really matters.
I've also let someone in on the secret. I love Anissa so much, i sware, there's nobody else like her. Kerstin and i have a connection, and we're getting better, but it's nowhere near Anissa and i. I have a feeling that she, Tyler, Kenny, Brandon and i will all be linked in some way for the rest of our lives. They are the 4 friends i am absolutely certain about. i've got my girl, and my boys. And we all know i've always reminded myself: "You don't need any boys besides Brandon, Tyler and Kenny. They are the only ones that will ever stay true."
And from what i've seen and learned, that is the truth.