all i want is to love you. but all you do is PUSH PUSH PUSH fucking PUSH

[darktrinity]

people move in and out of my life so fast, i can hardly remember their faces and name. day in and day out, the sleep lingers with a taste of sweet despair. addicting to the veins and blood. the light is hazy and i remain calm. nobody stays. then its true - "the only permanent thing is change." mother says that i am an empty glory. that i have become an ancient vanity. so i sweep the dust off my shoulders and continue in this illusion.

i don't care if i am fucking HATED
i don't care if i am fucking REJECTED
i don't care if i am fucking FORGOTTEN

teach me to HATE, so i can protect myself
teach me to REJECT, so i can protect myself
teach me to FORGET, so i can protect myself

you are crimson. i breathe you.