Juan and Crisandra
Man! It's been a while since I've jogged! I went with Juan to Excelsior to get in a little late night running in. I was seriously worried as to whether or not I'd be able to hang. I knew that Juan and Francisco had been putting in some good miles at the track and it had been a long time since my old two mile a day habit was in effect. Turns out that I shouldn't have been worried. Juan and I did 3 miles straight, including breaking into a dead run during the last lap to the car.
There's nothing like reaching your limits and then pressing them further!!! I had such a great runner's high last night! My whole body was oxygenated and aware. Who would have thought that it would be Juan who would be able to force me into such a physical effort?! I've got to say that man is seriously capable of some severe self body punishment! There is now not even a glimmer of the once lethargic and self loathing Juan that used to exist. This new Juan is confident and fit!
I got up early this morning to start calling in to Cinex, my casting company. I was so certain that I'd be able to land a gig that I had someone cover my shift at the Outback! Well, I didn't get a gig. So I guess I'm just off for the day. Yeesh! This is the second week where I've had two days off in a row! If I don't start being more careful, I could grow used to this.
Seems worth a mention to say that today would have been mine and Crisandra's 6th year anniversary had I not been a lying, cheating, and altogether horrific person to her so many years ago. I have to say that she really is a caring friend. I have hurt her so many times and still she is a loving caring friend. Sure she may lash out at times at me, but I definitely deserve it! I don't plan on giving myself the opportunity to hurt her again. If that means spending less time with her, then so be it.
When I first broke up with Jennifer, Crisandra and I started seeing each other again. I felt some of the old connection and I'm certain that so did she. However, that quickly died out and we became, once again, the best of friends. There have been times, though, where I've felt the need to take care of her and, yes, sometimes to love her beyond the love that we share as friends. I ask myself why this is. Especially when we argue nearly constantly. I finally think I'm starting to figure it out.
She challenges me. I've have never been with another girl who has been able to do so. Don't get me wrong. My previous girlfriends were, by no means, idiots. I would never date someone who is unintelligent or downright vapid. The thing is that Crisandra has a mixture of intelligence, quick wit, and set morals that are able to force me to think and look at my own actions in a different way. I am always quick to assume that I am taking the moral high road. Crisandra shows me that I should judge my self more cautiously. She's damn near a second conscience. One that I have wronged perhaps one too many times. Well, only time will tell.
There's nothing like reaching your limits and then pressing them further!!! I had such a great runner's high last night! My whole body was oxygenated and aware. Who would have thought that it would be Juan who would be able to force me into such a physical effort?! I've got to say that man is seriously capable of some severe self body punishment! There is now not even a glimmer of the once lethargic and self loathing Juan that used to exist. This new Juan is confident and fit!
I got up early this morning to start calling in to Cinex, my casting company. I was so certain that I'd be able to land a gig that I had someone cover my shift at the Outback! Well, I didn't get a gig. So I guess I'm just off for the day. Yeesh! This is the second week where I've had two days off in a row! If I don't start being more careful, I could grow used to this.
Seems worth a mention to say that today would have been mine and Crisandra's 6th year anniversary had I not been a lying, cheating, and altogether horrific person to her so many years ago. I have to say that she really is a caring friend. I have hurt her so many times and still she is a loving caring friend. Sure she may lash out at times at me, but I definitely deserve it! I don't plan on giving myself the opportunity to hurt her again. If that means spending less time with her, then so be it.
When I first broke up with Jennifer, Crisandra and I started seeing each other again. I felt some of the old connection and I'm certain that so did she. However, that quickly died out and we became, once again, the best of friends. There have been times, though, where I've felt the need to take care of her and, yes, sometimes to love her beyond the love that we share as friends. I ask myself why this is. Especially when we argue nearly constantly. I finally think I'm starting to figure it out.
She challenges me. I've have never been with another girl who has been able to do so. Don't get me wrong. My previous girlfriends were, by no means, idiots. I would never date someone who is unintelligent or downright vapid. The thing is that Crisandra has a mixture of intelligence, quick wit, and set morals that are able to force me to think and look at my own actions in a different way. I am always quick to assume that I am taking the moral high road. Crisandra shows me that I should judge my self more cautiously. She's damn near a second conscience. One that I have wronged perhaps one too many times. Well, only time will tell.