Dec 23, 2005 15:00
...teeth pulled, don't feel like eating. (thank god, this will let me avoid gaining 20lbs over break)
...however...
"He needs surgery"
I know, i just got done with ripping out two teeth, now i get to go back in sometime and have them hack a peice of my jawbone off. apparently my jaw is going to be a problem, *sigh* i guess it's a personal problem haha. someone should buy me a pack of Djarum Blacks for chirstmas, all this crap about surgery is pissing me off. followed by other things that irk me...that i can't do anything about.
i'm constantly caught between forces...the needs and the wants, the emotions..the "what i should do", the "what i want"...really seriously makes me want to just dig a hole for myself and die in it so i don't have to deal with it anymore. i'm tired of alot of things, i can't get away from any of it, so i have to deal with it...ugh.
...i really don't know what i'm doing or saying anymore...i give up.
~Johnny~