something i wrote this time last year about my boyfriend.
All of these feelings. Not knowing what to say. Listening to him breath. Wondering, thinking... is he thinking of me. How does he feel. I need him. I want him. I have to have him. Can i keep you? And never let go. To feel him. To bite, pull, grab, suck, nibble, lick, taste. To touch, hold, love, feel, know his heart belongs to me. Soon together. In his arms. Cant wait to know the feeling of waking up with you. So many feelings, emotions being tossed like a salad. And unsure of the future. There is a difference between needing and wanting something. I NEED it. I need him. Never felt this way before. Never thought i could. Knowing what love feels like. Scared to be happy. I feel like im asking for to much. What to think. Unsure of whats in my head. Did i say the wrong thing? Did i finally say the right thing. Never knowing. To hear his voice. Makes me smile. When he says "i love you" i go weak in the knees. He takes my breath away. This beautiful, charming, handsome, wonderful man that i love. There arent enough words to describe the feeling i have in my body. My heart, my head. This girl that loves him... She is a person of passion. Seduction. She is a tease. She is crazy, sexy, cool. Angry at the world. Doesnt like chocolate. Loves the rain. And he loves her for it. A pretty girl, oh so pretty. The way she is so understanding. Never judge. Always caring. Take it or leave it. She is what she is. I am what i am. My name is Amanda and i love a boy. What else is there to say.