Life's Many Complications
So I think that I'm gonna start this one from one of Danielle's perspectives for once...think its about time that I start getting a lil more philosophical like I used to be way back when I was in college....So lets talk about the idea that one can never truly be happy in life no matter what......Seems like a false statement of course, but thats a built in reaction in our brains. We seem to have built in multiadaptive coping mechanisms which guide us and clouds the thoughst of that matter. And of course that thought is the reality that we, as human beings, will never know true happiness to its fullest because there will always be some infinitely random factor that changes the enitire pattern of reality the complete opposite for an indefinite period. It could be some as simple as tripping over a crack and twisting your leg.....or as large as you being diagnosed with an incurable disease.........but even still its always just the right amount of force to turn your whole world around and change life to its worst. I guess that I was depressed today for some reason..probably just the seasons changing so dramaticly, but it just got me to thinking back on my life and all the bad things that have heppened to me and of course remembering in detail all the hardships that I had to endure to get through them and how long that they took. I don't think i ever really consciously considered the length of periods that I've been really truly happy and nothing could possibly change that fact. I know that as a person who has seen more then anyone should see of depression, I have constantly strived to keep myself in the happiest mood I can possible, partly in fear that if I stop I may just seep down into some dark dreay existence that I don't ever care to venture into. I tend to rerealize that when I'm down and I can't stand knowing that I could be a depressed person for the rest of my life if I'm not careful. But then I realize the fact that I have overcome so much in this short lifetime already that I have soo much happiness ahead to enjoy, and that is the one thought that keeps me in my constant happy aura that I maintain around me and of course try to excude to all around me though I seem to do it more unconsciously then consciously which kinda contradicts itself but makes perfect sense to myself. Being single these past 9 mos has made me quite realize that I am too used to having someone always by my side and that I can get along alone, but honestly its just so much better when I almost always have a person around me to keep me centered and on top of the world......And now I'm gonna cut this short cuz my gurl Danni needs her special candies Off To please her.....I have a great topic for tomorrow so tune in next time...Tah Tah