What goes around comes around.
I'm sitting here about to cry because I made myself bleed. how fucking stupid.
yes i'm drunk. i drank a lot.. i think, but i don't actually remember. bad sign.
i don't feel pretty or gorgeous or anything at all right now. i feel worthless and unwanted.. and i hate it. i hate feeling like this. why don't i feel strong as a singleton? why don't i like myself? why doesn't anyone like me?
heh.
i'm such a fucking teenager without even being one.
perhaps i should have stopped drinking when i started feeling sick. pah.
my birthday was okay. i bought some nice tops and a lovely cherry necklace.. and then i poledanced, drunkenly, in a pub garden with some friends..well. they watched. freaks.
and then some people started fuckin things up.. again. seriously. what's their problem?
god. it's quarter past five. that's just a silly time.
every now and then i realise how much i rely on you guys, on your comments, your posts and just knowing you are there, even if i haven't met the majority of y'all.
No. You look more gay.
yes i'm drunk. i drank a lot.. i think, but i don't actually remember. bad sign.
i don't feel pretty or gorgeous or anything at all right now. i feel worthless and unwanted.. and i hate it. i hate feeling like this. why don't i feel strong as a singleton? why don't i like myself? why doesn't anyone like me?
heh.
i'm such a fucking teenager without even being one.
perhaps i should have stopped drinking when i started feeling sick. pah.
my birthday was okay. i bought some nice tops and a lovely cherry necklace.. and then i poledanced, drunkenly, in a pub garden with some friends..well. they watched. freaks.
and then some people started fuckin things up.. again. seriously. what's their problem?
god. it's quarter past five. that's just a silly time.
every now and then i realise how much i rely on you guys, on your comments, your posts and just knowing you are there, even if i haven't met the majority of y'all.
No. You look more gay.