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Meh.
I'm just completely miserable at the moment. Long distance relationships are rubbish. Having your aunt tell you that you have dependancy issues and shouldn't bother with relationships until you're older is not particularly nice either.
Not knowing too many people in the area aside from Alex or Robin is making for a very lonely time. I find myself randomly weepy. It's really hard on me too, being so different from the people I do know. None of my friends are particularly religious, so it's making this decision of mine even more difficult than I anticipated.
I spoke to Peter earlier today, after the funeral of his grandmother. The family is sitting shiva tomorrow, so he wants me to call him late in the day. I'll have to give him the bad news about my not being able to do there (I can't seem to find a visa that will apply to myself. ) So there's another idea out, but it was such a good one. *sigh*
I don't know. I hate the feeling of a million people rushing around me, but I'm still alone. My thoughts are so disorangised tonight.
Just wish I could... I don't know. Spend time with people who actually share my interests/beliefs. Anyone? Anyone at all? ;_;
I'm just completely miserable at the moment. Long distance relationships are rubbish. Having your aunt tell you that you have dependancy issues and shouldn't bother with relationships until you're older is not particularly nice either.
Not knowing too many people in the area aside from Alex or Robin is making for a very lonely time. I find myself randomly weepy. It's really hard on me too, being so different from the people I do know. None of my friends are particularly religious, so it's making this decision of mine even more difficult than I anticipated.
I spoke to Peter earlier today, after the funeral of his grandmother. The family is sitting shiva tomorrow, so he wants me to call him late in the day. I'll have to give him the bad news about my not being able to do there (I can't seem to find a visa that will apply to myself. ) So there's another idea out, but it was such a good one. *sigh*
I don't know. I hate the feeling of a million people rushing around me, but I'm still alone. My thoughts are so disorangised tonight.
Just wish I could... I don't know. Spend time with people who actually share my interests/beliefs. Anyone? Anyone at all? ;_;