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[darksome]

I'm starting to regret bringing back friendships from the past...I'm so stupid for not being able to foresee that it was going to end up this way. You thought I was kidding when I said "that I much rather sever all ties and be all by myself." And guess what? I wasn't. I made you think that we would still be friends, but I'm kind of tired of your immature shit. When I offend you, you think I'm kidding, especially these last days. But a friend to me, you are no more. The thought of seeing you at the same school just makes me sick.
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A new idea came to me last night. A project which in itself might pay off in the future. I never thought I was capable of such creativity. It's already on paper, I just need to physically make
it.

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I'm still indecisive about what I want to do. Not sure whether I should start school in the spring or the fall. My mom said that I should. It felt good when I told her about it. I had been hiding it from her for so long, afraid that she might not approve or that she might say something against it. How wrong of me to think that way. It's always good to have someone there.

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I was not saddened by your passing away, which in itself is a sad thought. I feel awfully bad about that and I hope you forgive all of us.
RIP