Falling upwards backwards
I'm sort of at a loss.
"Explain why you are a leader, a worker or a motivator."
Ok - that's the question I'm trying to answer. It's frustrating on two levels, at least two levels, that I can think of.
Let's look at work. All my jobs, I've started out a peon and ended up in some sort of management role quickly - albeit too quickly sometimes. I think it's luck more then skill though. I happen to be at the right place at the right time, I name drop accidentially, I steal a job from a friend (which makes me a great friend, I know), I put an application at a job because the girl at the counter was cute (thank you arcade), or fall ass backwards into a job where I was expected to fail and instead out do most of the workers just because I hate being bored.
I've never looked at myself as a leader in any form of the word. I remember there was a joke in High School about that, but all in all, I laughed it off. I never thought anyone would follow my lead or anything.
To look at games, it's similar to work. In role playing, I was NEVER the leader. Too many alpha males to ever have a set leader anyhow. I lead my own causes, but mostly I was hated by many of my friends that I never knew until I stopped going, that it sort of made sense. In video games it's an odd mix too. In WoW, I was second in charge of a few guilds by... accident or merit, I don't know. I'm an officer in my current guild now, but all I seem to do is pick the good fight. Here's the thing, I hate humanity and people, yet I'm fighting for people all the time in the guild I'm in. ALL THE TIME. I give people the benefit of the doubt, I say things like "they're people, not just their class" and such nonsense. And when I'm saying it, I believe it. Really makes me rethink the destroy all humans thing. I had an asshole boss one time tell me "Leave your heart at the door, it's business here." And although I understand that theory, and I understand money is more important then anyone's family or personal problems in the cogs and wheels that makes us able to buy bread at the market without having to hand over a chicken... I still think it's bullshit to treat anyone as less then human when dealing with them.
So where does that leave me. I fall upwards by mistake, not merit. And while sitting up top, I fight for those lower then me, but usually to no love or care of the people I'm fighting for. Usually, I'd prefer they didn't know. I'll take a stand and defend people and would rather leave it at that -- people get all pissed off otherwise. The argument "I can fight for myself" is bullshit though people. If you can fight for yourself, you'd of handled the issue WAY before someone else had to get involved. We all need someone out there pulling for us or else you're going to eventually have to deal with the fact that people hate you for no good reason. Most everyone CARES, it's just a matter of how much you let that little fact effect you.
I'm just gonna write about how I think all three classifications are great, but I don't fit any of them. I don't have the charisma to inspire enough to be a motivator, I think independently enough and fight enough to not be a worker, and couldn't get a hooker to follow me with 100's hanging out of my fly... so, I'm gonna go the high road and claim that all classifications do is limit our possibilities, yadda yadda yadda. thanks for listening journal, you're the best.
"Explain why you are a leader, a worker or a motivator."
Ok - that's the question I'm trying to answer. It's frustrating on two levels, at least two levels, that I can think of.
Let's look at work. All my jobs, I've started out a peon and ended up in some sort of management role quickly - albeit too quickly sometimes. I think it's luck more then skill though. I happen to be at the right place at the right time, I name drop accidentially, I steal a job from a friend (which makes me a great friend, I know), I put an application at a job because the girl at the counter was cute (thank you arcade), or fall ass backwards into a job where I was expected to fail and instead out do most of the workers just because I hate being bored.
I've never looked at myself as a leader in any form of the word. I remember there was a joke in High School about that, but all in all, I laughed it off. I never thought anyone would follow my lead or anything.
To look at games, it's similar to work. In role playing, I was NEVER the leader. Too many alpha males to ever have a set leader anyhow. I lead my own causes, but mostly I was hated by many of my friends that I never knew until I stopped going, that it sort of made sense. In video games it's an odd mix too. In WoW, I was second in charge of a few guilds by... accident or merit, I don't know. I'm an officer in my current guild now, but all I seem to do is pick the good fight. Here's the thing, I hate humanity and people, yet I'm fighting for people all the time in the guild I'm in. ALL THE TIME. I give people the benefit of the doubt, I say things like "they're people, not just their class" and such nonsense. And when I'm saying it, I believe it. Really makes me rethink the destroy all humans thing. I had an asshole boss one time tell me "Leave your heart at the door, it's business here." And although I understand that theory, and I understand money is more important then anyone's family or personal problems in the cogs and wheels that makes us able to buy bread at the market without having to hand over a chicken... I still think it's bullshit to treat anyone as less then human when dealing with them.
So where does that leave me. I fall upwards by mistake, not merit. And while sitting up top, I fight for those lower then me, but usually to no love or care of the people I'm fighting for. Usually, I'd prefer they didn't know. I'll take a stand and defend people and would rather leave it at that -- people get all pissed off otherwise. The argument "I can fight for myself" is bullshit though people. If you can fight for yourself, you'd of handled the issue WAY before someone else had to get involved. We all need someone out there pulling for us or else you're going to eventually have to deal with the fact that people hate you for no good reason. Most everyone CARES, it's just a matter of how much you let that little fact effect you.
I'm just gonna write about how I think all three classifications are great, but I don't fit any of them. I don't have the charisma to inspire enough to be a motivator, I think independently enough and fight enough to not be a worker, and couldn't get a hooker to follow me with 100's hanging out of my fly... so, I'm gonna go the high road and claim that all classifications do is limit our possibilities, yadda yadda yadda. thanks for listening journal, you're the best.