Can't breath...
It feels like my lungs are filled with black... something... Chelsea and Ryss are dating.. i should be ok with it.. i am ok with it... Chelsea got what she needs... and that is good... so it's ok... and i'm ok with it... but sometimes I lie to myself to make myself happy... but i shouldn't dissillusion myself to thinking things that aren't true because the truth can come back and bite me in the ass and that's bad... now ryss is mad at me.. B is mad at me.. im pretty sure Chels is mad at me.. I don't think KC is but that's jsut cuz I haven't done anything to make her mad yet... all in good time though... Chelsea gave me 3 months to a year before i quite completely... i think she's right.. no one trusts me anymore so why go on? I hope no one I know reads this... Chelsea's leaving tomorrow so she prolly won't...
Everyone says don't worry about it... it'll all be ok... I'm sick of crying, and whining and complaining and ruining everybodys day! I tryed to be happy at WaterWorld yesterday but according to B it was almost, but not quite a successful effort
So no one trusts me.. everyone (almost) is mad at me... cept KC and Willow... i like willow... she's likeme but... it feels weird how well we get along..
Anyone who reads this... sorry if it sounds a bit scattered brained and rambly.. i can't seem to think straight right now but i needed to write... and i can't find my journal so yea...
Everyone says don't worry about it... it'll all be ok... I'm sick of crying, and whining and complaining and ruining everybodys day! I tryed to be happy at WaterWorld yesterday but according to B it was almost, but not quite a successful effort
So no one trusts me.. everyone (almost) is mad at me... cept KC and Willow... i like willow... she's likeme but... it feels weird how well we get along..
Anyone who reads this... sorry if it sounds a bit scattered brained and rambly.. i can't seem to think straight right now but i needed to write... and i can't find my journal so yea...