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Chloe -
Geof is not coming back - get over it. You're not getting any younger - start your work. - You feel like a crazy person because you are.- You have problems with abandonment and isolation. You need to fix yourself. You need to stop make believing. You need to breath. You need to let go. The tighter you hold on the more it slips. You have to let it go. You have to stop crying. You need to move on. You need to focus. You need to realize that you need to love you, and that needs to be enough. You need to get in shape. You need to push things into perspective. If he doesn't love you let go. He's made up his mind. You are not going to change it. You screwed up. Make a decision and stick with it. Move on, let go, if nothing else make the jump. I NEED TO do something. Why is it so damn hard to let go. Why do I keep this hope - "it sounds like people being dumb" ... yeah, my hope is definatly dumb...Fuck. So...I guess I made it through a week and then I got pushed back several steps...by several I mean a whole bunch. I was doing really well...mainly because I thought there was a ray of hope. I honestly thought he'd change his mind...I thought he missed me like I missed him. no such luck...not even a little. He is moving on, he is gone. He wants very little to do with me. Friendship is a joke. I was going to come crawling back, I was doing well at pretending everything was alright...Why does it seem like my life always turns into this big joke - yeah, I'm pathetic, and ya know, I guess if it weren't me I might be laughing too...I guess I just need a few more layers. So glad since I was dumped I've had a group of people ask how life is going, How ling do I have to keep lying, and when I answer - "I'm hanging in there" I get harassed - "well, that's no good..." no shit. I get a girl who I though was my friend explaining how she's not comfortable with my relationship with her boyfriend now, and if I could back off a little things would be better. I get people asking me how I could break up with Geof, because it's clearly my fault, and I get this sick feeling that maybe it is just temporary - only to get it crushed in one phrase. I'm glad your choice is crystal clear, why? Could you give me that? What did I do wrong? I gave you space, I played the friend, so what made it clear that this was the best option? Yeah I aware I sound like an emo crazy bitch...I've tried really hard, but it won't go away. Why won't it go away?
Geof is not coming back - get over it. You're not getting any younger - start your work. - You feel like a crazy person because you are.- You have problems with abandonment and isolation. You need to fix yourself. You need to stop make believing. You need to breath. You need to let go. The tighter you hold on the more it slips. You have to let it go. You have to stop crying. You need to move on. You need to focus. You need to realize that you need to love you, and that needs to be enough. You need to get in shape. You need to push things into perspective. If he doesn't love you let go. He's made up his mind. You are not going to change it. You screwed up. Make a decision and stick with it. Move on, let go, if nothing else make the jump. I NEED TO do something. Why is it so damn hard to let go. Why do I keep this hope - "it sounds like people being dumb" ... yeah, my hope is definatly dumb...Fuck. So...I guess I made it through a week and then I got pushed back several steps...by several I mean a whole bunch. I was doing really well...mainly because I thought there was a ray of hope. I honestly thought he'd change his mind...I thought he missed me like I missed him. no such luck...not even a little. He is moving on, he is gone. He wants very little to do with me. Friendship is a joke. I was going to come crawling back, I was doing well at pretending everything was alright...Why does it seem like my life always turns into this big joke - yeah, I'm pathetic, and ya know, I guess if it weren't me I might be laughing too...I guess I just need a few more layers. So glad since I was dumped I've had a group of people ask how life is going, How ling do I have to keep lying, and when I answer - "I'm hanging in there" I get harassed - "well, that's no good..." no shit. I get a girl who I though was my friend explaining how she's not comfortable with my relationship with her boyfriend now, and if I could back off a little things would be better. I get people asking me how I could break up with Geof, because it's clearly my fault, and I get this sick feeling that maybe it is just temporary - only to get it crushed in one phrase. I'm glad your choice is crystal clear, why? Could you give me that? What did I do wrong? I gave you space, I played the friend, so what made it clear that this was the best option? Yeah I aware I sound like an emo crazy bitch...I've tried really hard, but it won't go away. Why won't it go away?