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i feel shitty, for the first time in my life im feeling jealousy, and i dont like it, it makes me feel like a bad person, but whatever
so today mrs. birns fucked up my final and made me want to stab myself, im so pissed off because i was actually beginning to like it and now it just kinda sucks and is unusable for anything. and she wouldnt accept my essay bc it wasnt typed and i dont have a computer so fuck her...
i cant really describe how i feel.
i guess i feel over all helpless
i need to register for the SAT in april or may, but i dont have the cash, i need to get my act together and stop being such a fuck up.
i think ill work at mcdonalds forever.
who knows, i just feel like all the people that ever supported me have just kinda stopped caring because ive become lathargic with school, i hate when people think im retarded because my grades arnt great and i take some shitty classes,
i dont care fuck you if you think im retarded
anyway
the other day i was sitting with my friend and they pretty much told me i was stupid and wouldnt have money, some friend...but i guess its true, if i dont fix myself ill never really pursue my dream. i dont think im quite ready to jump into the art world, im really not vicous enough to shuve my stuff up peoples asses, grantite i dont make much anymore but even little sketches make me feel timid, i dont like to be judged and compared, i just want to be myself
i dont know where that shit came from but onwards...
mal goes home tommorrow that also makes me feel like shit because i didnt even get to see her really, i feel like a bad person overall lately
but whatever who knows maybe things will come together
i love it when a plan comes together
so today mrs. birns fucked up my final and made me want to stab myself, im so pissed off because i was actually beginning to like it and now it just kinda sucks and is unusable for anything. and she wouldnt accept my essay bc it wasnt typed and i dont have a computer so fuck her...
i cant really describe how i feel.
i guess i feel over all helpless
i need to register for the SAT in april or may, but i dont have the cash, i need to get my act together and stop being such a fuck up.
i think ill work at mcdonalds forever.
who knows, i just feel like all the people that ever supported me have just kinda stopped caring because ive become lathargic with school, i hate when people think im retarded because my grades arnt great and i take some shitty classes,
i dont care fuck you if you think im retarded
anyway
the other day i was sitting with my friend and they pretty much told me i was stupid and wouldnt have money, some friend...but i guess its true, if i dont fix myself ill never really pursue my dream. i dont think im quite ready to jump into the art world, im really not vicous enough to shuve my stuff up peoples asses, grantite i dont make much anymore but even little sketches make me feel timid, i dont like to be judged and compared, i just want to be myself
i dont know where that shit came from but onwards...
mal goes home tommorrow that also makes me feel like shit because i didnt even get to see her really, i feel like a bad person overall lately
but whatever who knows maybe things will come together
i love it when a plan comes together