Loneliness
No one I can think of really goes about saying how lonely they are, it's a feeling that seemed to dominate our teen years after all so to feel that way, just doesn't seem very adult. Yet deep down I think it's something dreadful as it's an emotion that often seems to come out of nowhere. Everything else could be going grand in life, but then you're hit with that debilitating blow of an emotion, which outclasses every other feeling you have. It doesn't matter whether you're with friends chatting it up, doing some work for class, or lying in bed at 8 in the morning freezing your ass off even though you shouldn't be since you have a warm down comforter. It's going to hit and there's nothing you can do to stop it. And I'm not even talking loneliness of relationships or friends, family, whatever, I'm talking straight up unqualified loneliness.
The worst part is that it's an actively acting emotion. It'll seem like the best thing is to simply go hang out, meet up with some people, and forget about your worries, but these aren't the things you really want to be doing. It's easier just to lay in bed, play some music and let everything wash over you. More often than not, it doesn't feel like friends can get "down there" with you to dig you out, as just as easily as loneliness sets in, eventually it just drops out as well. The feeling of loneliness is like a phantom feeling as you don't really know what the hell it is that's bothering you until you see that phantom in the room, just looming by.
It's not particularly dangerous to feel lonely, it's something we all deal with anyway. It's probably more dangerous when we try to rationalize it and explain why we feel the way we do, there's never really a stand-out reason. But by rationalizing, we might end up making reasons that aren't really there. Like an undertow beneath the waves, there's no real way to fight it. The only escape is to give in, let it pull you out, and drown in the dark.
The worst part is that it's an actively acting emotion. It'll seem like the best thing is to simply go hang out, meet up with some people, and forget about your worries, but these aren't the things you really want to be doing. It's easier just to lay in bed, play some music and let everything wash over you. More often than not, it doesn't feel like friends can get "down there" with you to dig you out, as just as easily as loneliness sets in, eventually it just drops out as well. The feeling of loneliness is like a phantom feeling as you don't really know what the hell it is that's bothering you until you see that phantom in the room, just looming by.
It's not particularly dangerous to feel lonely, it's something we all deal with anyway. It's probably more dangerous when we try to rationalize it and explain why we feel the way we do, there's never really a stand-out reason. But by rationalizing, we might end up making reasons that aren't really there. Like an undertow beneath the waves, there's no real way to fight it. The only escape is to give in, let it pull you out, and drown in the dark.