Coping
Been a stressful semester.
Gamer's is just busy and taxing.
Tony and I are not speaking at all, and I think this is for the best. Especially for me. After the summer and everything that happened then, I came to realize he wasn't a very good boyfriend, and as a person has much to work on. And post-breakup he was nasty, mean, manipulative, and overall abusive. In a literal sense.
It took us breaking up to show me how much we needed to break up.
I have been very bitter and angry since I last saw him. (Which is not as I usually am - usually more sad and perhaps a touch annoyed at times. Angry is rare and something of note.) After some thinking and a HUGE, heart-breaking revelation, I have come to see that it's been my way of coping with the breakup, his abuse, and general stress surrounding the summer.
I'm less angry since I noticed this, but just as bitter. Maybe even more so this past week or two. Though that is not completely specific to Tony.
Reflection is painful but helps, in the long run.
Gamer's is just busy and taxing.
Tony and I are not speaking at all, and I think this is for the best. Especially for me. After the summer and everything that happened then, I came to realize he wasn't a very good boyfriend, and as a person has much to work on. And post-breakup he was nasty, mean, manipulative, and overall abusive. In a literal sense.
It took us breaking up to show me how much we needed to break up.
I have been very bitter and angry since I last saw him. (Which is not as I usually am - usually more sad and perhaps a touch annoyed at times. Angry is rare and something of note.) After some thinking and a HUGE, heart-breaking revelation, I have come to see that it's been my way of coping with the breakup, his abuse, and general stress surrounding the summer.
I'm less angry since I noticed this, but just as bitter. Maybe even more so this past week or two. Though that is not completely specific to Tony.
Reflection is painful but helps, in the long run.