update again
Apparently I wasn't completely "back" when I posted last. Oh well! I don't really mind, except of course that it's keeping me away from all my lovely people who I now can only contact over the net. But I'm doing intensive work! And by intensive, I mean, "sorting out clothes to keep and to give away, cleaning out my overfull-of-boxes closet, rearranging furniture, and buying stuff." I would give a more comprehensive list of the "stuff" except that I can't remember what any of it was right now.
Normally I would feel like I'm complaining, but since I still haven't managed to get together a full and complete list of people I want to keep in touch with via email while I'm away from school, I should probably keep at least some of them up to date here.
Yesterday morning, I finally got tired of my father trying to tie every single problem I had to one thing, so admittedly I blew up at him a little. We then had a very long talk, and he starting looking through various mental problems and checking symptoms against what I have. Because for some reason I can't actually remember all those either, I'm going to quote myself from just a few minutes ago on AIM with rabidfarfgirl:
+ At this point, if there's a medical thingie wrong with my mind, too, there's a possibility I've got it.
+ Voices? Check. Panic? Check. Anxiety? Check. Depression? Check. Mania? Check. Common/major loss of memory? Check. Feeling of more than one personality in existence? Check.
+ Basically, Dad looked up a whole bunch of problems and listed out symptoms, and there wasn't a one that didn't have at least two to which I said, Yep, I got that.
+ Uhm, what else...?
+ Oh yeah.
+ I have to be ALWAYS listening to music/other, because I can't stand silence.
+ I have to ALWAYS be in the middle of reading something, but at the same time, if I'm reading I have this impending feeling that I HAVE to finish the story, too.
rabidfarfgirl: All of those are like listing flue symptoms. Hard to place the exact cause of all of them. heh.
+ And I have to do at least two things at once, or I can't concentrate.
+ Exactly! I don't want to go in saying: this is my problem, anyway.
+ Because some doctors just write you off if you do that, and say you need therapy because you think you know what you're talking about.
rabidfarfgirl: Yeah. Just go in with all the symptoms. The med people know more then I do I'm afraid.
+ Apparently they say it's hypochondria.
+ Bah.
On top of that is oversleepiness, and not getting the right signals to tell me when I'm hungry, or full. Alternately fainting from hunger and vomiting from overeating is not pleasant, yo.
But on the plus side, we are getting stuff done, slowly but surely, and Dad and I are rewatching all three seasons of Slayers (and I'm convincing him to get the other movies as well) and my mother will be home on Friday and when she is (probably not till Saturday, though) we'll all watch Howl's Moving Castle together. Yay!
Also once Mom's home we'll start the tasking rounds of making doctor's appointments and seeing if we can find someone to actually listen to me, instead of just deciding in the first five-ten minutes and then not hearing another word. Bah, I say! BAH.
Normally I would feel like I'm complaining, but since I still haven't managed to get together a full and complete list of people I want to keep in touch with via email while I'm away from school, I should probably keep at least some of them up to date here.
Yesterday morning, I finally got tired of my father trying to tie every single problem I had to one thing, so admittedly I blew up at him a little. We then had a very long talk, and he starting looking through various mental problems and checking symptoms against what I have. Because for some reason I can't actually remember all those either, I'm going to quote myself from just a few minutes ago on AIM with rabidfarfgirl:
+ At this point, if there's a medical thingie wrong with my mind, too, there's a possibility I've got it.
+ Voices? Check. Panic? Check. Anxiety? Check. Depression? Check. Mania? Check. Common/major loss of memory? Check. Feeling of more than one personality in existence? Check.
+ Basically, Dad looked up a whole bunch of problems and listed out symptoms, and there wasn't a one that didn't have at least two to which I said, Yep, I got that.
+ Uhm, what else...?
+ Oh yeah.
+ I have to be ALWAYS listening to music/other, because I can't stand silence.
+ I have to ALWAYS be in the middle of reading something, but at the same time, if I'm reading I have this impending feeling that I HAVE to finish the story, too.
rabidfarfgirl: All of those are like listing flue symptoms. Hard to place the exact cause of all of them. heh.
+ And I have to do at least two things at once, or I can't concentrate.
+ Exactly! I don't want to go in saying: this is my problem, anyway.
+ Because some doctors just write you off if you do that, and say you need therapy because you think you know what you're talking about.
rabidfarfgirl: Yeah. Just go in with all the symptoms. The med people know more then I do I'm afraid.
+ Apparently they say it's hypochondria.
+ Bah.
On top of that is oversleepiness, and not getting the right signals to tell me when I'm hungry, or full. Alternately fainting from hunger and vomiting from overeating is not pleasant, yo.
But on the plus side, we are getting stuff done, slowly but surely, and Dad and I are rewatching all three seasons of Slayers (and I'm convincing him to get the other movies as well) and my mother will be home on Friday and when she is (probably not till Saturday, though) we'll all watch Howl's Moving Castle together. Yay!
Also once Mom's home we'll start the tasking rounds of making doctor's appointments and seeing if we can find someone to actually listen to me, instead of just deciding in the first five-ten minutes and then not hearing another word. Bah, I say! BAH.