Trying not to get emotional (...good luck!)
It's been crazy lately, and it's been getting into my nerves at some point. I am once again in that phase where I think about the what ifs in my life. Past, present and future realizations come together and cram in my head. I've been thinking about the things that have and are currently affecting my life. Things which were the result of the choices that I've made in the past.
I try to make myself happy everyday. I try to find joy in everything that I do. I try to be happy with the people I am with. But there would be one of those days that you would just find yourself to be really sad but you don't know why you're sad, you just feel sad, period. I know that it happens to the best of us, it's not a rare thing, but you keep asking and thinking, why am I sad? And then it hits you head-on. Your happiness is your sadness. If you lose these things that are dear to you, definitely you'll find yourself in that situation where you'd want to get a pillow, hug it and let those tears fall, and then you ask yourself: "Why is this happening to me? What did I do wrong?"
*Sigh*
I'm becoming pathetic again eh, especially after spouting all this nonsense. Anyways I just wanted to write (even if I don't know how to) and pour out what's in my head -even if it's only a bit. It's been crazy, ubercrazy.
I try to make myself happy everyday. I try to find joy in everything that I do. I try to be happy with the people I am with. But there would be one of those days that you would just find yourself to be really sad but you don't know why you're sad, you just feel sad, period. I know that it happens to the best of us, it's not a rare thing, but you keep asking and thinking, why am I sad? And then it hits you head-on. Your happiness is your sadness. If you lose these things that are dear to you, definitely you'll find yourself in that situation where you'd want to get a pillow, hug it and let those tears fall, and then you ask yourself: "Why is this happening to me? What did I do wrong?"
*Sigh*
I'm becoming pathetic again eh, especially after spouting all this nonsense. Anyways I just wanted to write (even if I don't know how to) and pour out what's in my head -even if it's only a bit. It's been crazy, ubercrazy.