“I do desire we may be better strangers." - Shakespeare
Oh how I wish I could support myself if I moved out of my mother's house. I wouldn't have to deal with this shit that much. Its times like this that I really hate the fact that Grant doesn't want me to move in with him yet. Let me fill you all in about mom.
She is an 8th grade science teacher at Bear Branch Jr High, and I think she is a really great teacher, honestly. She goes out of her way a lot to teach the kids, like by having animals and doing lots of activites in the science labs and so on and so forth. But the administration at BBJH is screwing her over, and so she is finally looking for another teaching position at another school. She has been really stressed out lately b/c of her job stuff and all the grandpa stuff that has been going on (see last post about "grandpa stuff"). She is always talking to me about her co-workers and bosses at work, and according to her they are all mean and out to hurt her for some odd reason that she just cannot figure out.
Grant has also been working at the BBJH as a techie, and accoriding to him all the people that mom hates are really nice and the one person that she trusts there is not good to be around.
B/c of this new perspective that Grant has given me, I have come to think that mom really does think that everyone is out to get her, just like some people think the government is out to get them. So all of our bickering today sparked from when mom said Mrs Burge (my old 8th grade history teacher) was on the "other side" and "she turned". All I said was I still thought she was a cool person, and then mom got really depressed, and kept saying in a obviously-not-so-convincing tone of voice that nothing was wrong. God I hate the way she beats around the bush. Maybe now people will understand why I am proud of being blunt. Anyway, things spiral on from there during the day, and basically she now thinks that I think that is a bad teacher. Apparently in her mind I have now "turned on her". I wish I had an appartment of my own so I wouldn't have to worry about this crap; I wouldn't have to choose sides between her or her so-called enimies. I really don't want to, I don't want to lie and say I believe everything she tells me anymore, but if I don't "choose a side" then she will automatically think that I am against her. This is getting to complex.
She also tells me I've been demanding too much of her lately and she just has to do it or I'll be upset and not get my way. And she tells me that in a really condesending voice too. I admit, I think she has too many animals (2 lizards, 2 CAGES full of Madagascar Cockroaches, 7 small cages of mice, 2 snakes, and 4 cats) and I think she is a full-blown pack-rat. Our office room, the guest-room, the backroom, and her bedroom are all in clutters, and it has been this way for years. And I admit that lately I've been quite forcefull about those issues, even though I know now is not the time for it, they have just really been bugging me lately. But am I wrong? I would just like to know at this point if she knows that what I am suggesting is the better thing to do. The animals take up a lot of her time with the feeding of them and cleaning their cages and changing the cat litter, and the clutter is just bad. I'm not saying she should get rid of all her animals, just cut down on how many she has. espescially the mice and roaches. Her solutiong to fixing clutter all the time is to buy another bookshelf or display case, which she doesn't have enough room for in the first place. So am I wrong to ask these things of her? Is it really that bad?
Well I know I have more to say, but I cannot express it in words, (which is really irritating) so I'm just going to stop now.
She is an 8th grade science teacher at Bear Branch Jr High, and I think she is a really great teacher, honestly. She goes out of her way a lot to teach the kids, like by having animals and doing lots of activites in the science labs and so on and so forth. But the administration at BBJH is screwing her over, and so she is finally looking for another teaching position at another school. She has been really stressed out lately b/c of her job stuff and all the grandpa stuff that has been going on (see last post about "grandpa stuff"). She is always talking to me about her co-workers and bosses at work, and according to her they are all mean and out to hurt her for some odd reason that she just cannot figure out.
Grant has also been working at the BBJH as a techie, and accoriding to him all the people that mom hates are really nice and the one person that she trusts there is not good to be around.
B/c of this new perspective that Grant has given me, I have come to think that mom really does think that everyone is out to get her, just like some people think the government is out to get them. So all of our bickering today sparked from when mom said Mrs Burge (my old 8th grade history teacher) was on the "other side" and "she turned". All I said was I still thought she was a cool person, and then mom got really depressed, and kept saying in a obviously-not-so-convincing tone of voice that nothing was wrong. God I hate the way she beats around the bush. Maybe now people will understand why I am proud of being blunt. Anyway, things spiral on from there during the day, and basically she now thinks that I think that is a bad teacher. Apparently in her mind I have now "turned on her". I wish I had an appartment of my own so I wouldn't have to worry about this crap; I wouldn't have to choose sides between her or her so-called enimies. I really don't want to, I don't want to lie and say I believe everything she tells me anymore, but if I don't "choose a side" then she will automatically think that I am against her. This is getting to complex.
She also tells me I've been demanding too much of her lately and she just has to do it or I'll be upset and not get my way. And she tells me that in a really condesending voice too. I admit, I think she has too many animals (2 lizards, 2 CAGES full of Madagascar Cockroaches, 7 small cages of mice, 2 snakes, and 4 cats) and I think she is a full-blown pack-rat. Our office room, the guest-room, the backroom, and her bedroom are all in clutters, and it has been this way for years. And I admit that lately I've been quite forcefull about those issues, even though I know now is not the time for it, they have just really been bugging me lately. But am I wrong? I would just like to know at this point if she knows that what I am suggesting is the better thing to do. The animals take up a lot of her time with the feeding of them and cleaning their cages and changing the cat litter, and the clutter is just bad. I'm not saying she should get rid of all her animals, just cut down on how many she has. espescially the mice and roaches. Her solutiong to fixing clutter all the time is to buy another bookshelf or display case, which she doesn't have enough room for in the first place. So am I wrong to ask these things of her? Is it really that bad?
Well I know I have more to say, but I cannot express it in words, (which is really irritating) so I'm just going to stop now.