Well yea
So the cycle begins, it's very frustrating. My stomach is growling loudly but I'm too nauseous to try and eat anything. At the same time I know that if I don't eat anything I'll just make myself more sick. It's an upsetting conundrum. : / I've been having some pretty extreme ups and downs the last two days but thankfully nothing near the last time. Things are easier when they're not a shock, you know? I mean. It still sucks. A lot. But I don't feel like the Earth just opened up beneath my feet and swallowed me. That's nice. There are moments where I'm excited about meeting new people. And then there are moments where I'm terrified. I just want someone to come home to, you know?
So overall I'm doing ok, just having hiccups of depression and anxiety here and there (especially in the morning). My go-to defense mechanism is kicking in and making me very sleepy all the time. I just want to go home and curl up watching Glee or Archer or something. But I must power on through work because I'm an adult. And being an adult sucks. At least I got paid today. ^_^
So overall I'm doing ok, just having hiccups of depression and anxiety here and there (especially in the morning). My go-to defense mechanism is kicking in and making me very sleepy all the time. I just want to go home and curl up watching Glee or Archer or something. But I must power on through work because I'm an adult. And being an adult sucks. At least I got paid today. ^_^