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12 more days 'till my birthday!!
These past days have been so weird....ok...i just noticed that i have good and bad news to say first, so i'll let that out!
GOOD news: my dad's buying me a digital camera for my birthday!
BAD news: I cried like 5 million times these days.
Ok, so my mom has a friend who wants to refinance her house but she doesnt know english so my mom makes me go and interpret...turns out i did really good and i got a fucking job!! Although, i don't think i want to go, the guy freaked me out...i mean like really he was all like winking at me and shit...he was being too nice..waaay nice...so i dont think i want to go...i can make money the easy way anyways...asking my parents for it! well anyways... i feel so weird cuz i saw this kid that i have no connection with randomly for the third time yesterday...the first time i saw him, i said to myself "i wish i had the guts to go up to him and talk to him"....well, let's just say the closest i got to talking to him was exchanging glances. so yea, i feel like a complete fool with and i believe i sound like a little girl with a stupid crush. anyways, at night i went with my dad and he took me to barnes and noble...i love barnes and noble. although i had to go to the bathroom and cry...of joy though...well, my daddy once got struck by lightning and almost died but survived, but he was left with a huge memory problem, he would forget a lot of things. but yesterday, was the first time in years since the incident that he actually remebered my brithday..i cried not only cuz in the past he forgot it, but he would forget even more things that delt with me.well, i guess everything's fine now. except how i wish my mother would just burn in hell or something. she knows i have a huge roachphobia...yes, i have the biggest fear of roaches, and she still made me clean the back yard when their were tons of roaches out side cuz of the humid...i swear i cant stand her secially when she makes me cry and yea she made me cry that day cuz i was scared shitless in the center, i wouldnt even get near a wall afraid one would pop up and then she started bitching at me cuz i was crying. what ever....now i'm just sad and depressed as usual and wish things were better...i hope she dies and the day she does...i dunno...w/e fuck it. i should stop being so...i dunno...stupid? w.e ok, let's talk about something "happy"...
12 more days 'till my birthday and i can't wait to open up presents...yea...should i have a party? well, i dont think i can though, most likely i'm going to europe so i'll be packing. i'll be so happy spending time with my best friend, i havent seen her in a year and i miss her...i'll be even more happy since she lives in finland. so yea..i'll be happy...
yup..i'm still sad...god i'm fucked up.
These past days have been so weird....ok...i just noticed that i have good and bad news to say first, so i'll let that out!
GOOD news: my dad's buying me a digital camera for my birthday!
BAD news: I cried like 5 million times these days.
Ok, so my mom has a friend who wants to refinance her house but she doesnt know english so my mom makes me go and interpret...turns out i did really good and i got a fucking job!! Although, i don't think i want to go, the guy freaked me out...i mean like really he was all like winking at me and shit...he was being too nice..waaay nice...so i dont think i want to go...i can make money the easy way anyways...asking my parents for it! well anyways... i feel so weird cuz i saw this kid that i have no connection with randomly for the third time yesterday...the first time i saw him, i said to myself "i wish i had the guts to go up to him and talk to him"....well, let's just say the closest i got to talking to him was exchanging glances. so yea, i feel like a complete fool with and i believe i sound like a little girl with a stupid crush. anyways, at night i went with my dad and he took me to barnes and noble...i love barnes and noble. although i had to go to the bathroom and cry...of joy though...well, my daddy once got struck by lightning and almost died but survived, but he was left with a huge memory problem, he would forget a lot of things. but yesterday, was the first time in years since the incident that he actually remebered my brithday..i cried not only cuz in the past he forgot it, but he would forget even more things that delt with me.well, i guess everything's fine now. except how i wish my mother would just burn in hell or something. she knows i have a huge roachphobia...yes, i have the biggest fear of roaches, and she still made me clean the back yard when their were tons of roaches out side cuz of the humid...i swear i cant stand her secially when she makes me cry and yea she made me cry that day cuz i was scared shitless in the center, i wouldnt even get near a wall afraid one would pop up and then she started bitching at me cuz i was crying. what ever....now i'm just sad and depressed as usual and wish things were better...i hope she dies and the day she does...i dunno...w/e fuck it. i should stop being so...i dunno...stupid? w.e ok, let's talk about something "happy"...
12 more days 'till my birthday and i can't wait to open up presents...yea...should i have a party? well, i dont think i can though, most likely i'm going to europe so i'll be packing. i'll be so happy spending time with my best friend, i havent seen her in a year and i miss her...i'll be even more happy since she lives in finland. so yea..i'll be happy...
yup..i'm still sad...god i'm fucked up.