sighs are good
Today was SO totally not a good day. I thought that it couldn't get any worse when I found out my dog had to be put to sleep, but no, it gets even worse when Allie gets all up in my face again. You know, I was a pinch away from punching her in the face, and I am completely serious. But you know, there are other people who can help me deal with this, and his name is Mr. P, the Guidence Person who is working on the whole big ordeal with Allie and what not. You know what? I'm just sick and tired of this! Crying myself to sleep at night. People pretending to be my friends! People pretending to care! I'M SICK OF EVERYTHING! I JUST WANNA GO HOME....here's the catch...right now, I'm sitting in my mum's bedroom on her computer, typing this...*sighs*...this isn't how life used to be....it used to be good..or at least...well...not so bad....but now I just dont' seem to be able to take it anymore. Living, family, friends, school, work. I just can't do it anymore! All I want to do is die, but the only thing that is keeping me alive at the moment, are my real friends like Martha and Shelby, who I feel I have to stay strong for. Their lives are probably far worse than mine, and I know that if I kill myself, it gives them more of a reason to kill themselves. Also, for Mike. Mike, I really do love you, and I really do care about you, despite what happens. Also, for my sister, because she looks up to me and me hurting myself would just break her heart. She would die....*sighs*.....I just wanna go home....please, God, take me home....