updates my friends!
lets see... i put my faith in unworthy people YET AGAIN! GOD DAMN IT!! i just cant win. i tell ya.
ANy who...if you read this...and you KNOW who you are. you are cold...wrong..and inconsiderate. Rot in hell and burn for your treason.
*work* well, i went into work today, and put in my 2 week notice. I started my other job today. Subway in monroe. Its not bad. I think it will be more promising than mcASSHOLES ever was. SO I'm givin it a shot. Least i will make more money there
hmmm i have had writters block for some time now....and i am DIEING to write another poem but every time i try to start one i get shit. nothing but shit if anything at all.
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm other than hating everything that i am, was, or ever will be...the depression kinda kicks your ass after awhile. I been praying SUPER hard that i just dont wake up but i guess god hates me for i wake up EVERY DAMN DAY! maybe my purpose hasnt been served. i havent suffered enough for everyones amusment. laugh as i bleed....do it, every one else does....
now if only i could get these voices in my head to SHUT UP!!
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Vermilion Part 2
She seemed dressed in all of me
Stretched across my shame
All the torment and the pain
Leaked through and covered me
I'd do anything to have her to myself
Just to have her for myself
Now I don't know what to do
I don't know what to do
When she makes me sad
She is everything to me
The unrequited dream
A song that no one sings
The unattainable
She's a myth that I have to believe in
All I need to make it real is one more reason
I don't know what to do
I don't know what to do
When she makes me sad
But I won't let this build up inside of me
I catch in my throat
Choke
Torn into pieces
I won't - no
I don't wanna be this
But I won't let this build up inside of me
She isn't real
I can't make her real
ANy who...if you read this...and you KNOW who you are. you are cold...wrong..and inconsiderate. Rot in hell and burn for your treason.
*work* well, i went into work today, and put in my 2 week notice. I started my other job today. Subway in monroe. Its not bad. I think it will be more promising than mcASSHOLES ever was. SO I'm givin it a shot. Least i will make more money there
hmmm i have had writters block for some time now....and i am DIEING to write another poem but every time i try to start one i get shit. nothing but shit if anything at all.
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm other than hating everything that i am, was, or ever will be...the depression kinda kicks your ass after awhile. I been praying SUPER hard that i just dont wake up but i guess god hates me for i wake up EVERY DAMN DAY! maybe my purpose hasnt been served. i havent suffered enough for everyones amusment. laugh as i bleed....do it, every one else does....
now if only i could get these voices in my head to SHUT UP!!
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Vermilion Part 2
She seemed dressed in all of me
Stretched across my shame
All the torment and the pain
Leaked through and covered me
I'd do anything to have her to myself
Just to have her for myself
Now I don't know what to do
I don't know what to do
When she makes me sad
She is everything to me
The unrequited dream
A song that no one sings
The unattainable
She's a myth that I have to believe in
All I need to make it real is one more reason
I don't know what to do
I don't know what to do
When she makes me sad
But I won't let this build up inside of me
I catch in my throat
Choke
Torn into pieces
I won't - no
I don't wanna be this
But I won't let this build up inside of me
She isn't real
I can't make her real