I've been struggling
As the singer Prince once sang, "I was dreaming when I wrote this, so forgive me if I go astray" Forgive the rambling.
I've been struggling with feelings of inadaquecy lately.
I hate my job, but feel powerless to change anything about it due to the fact if I quit, I lose insurance for at least 90 days.
I struggle in the ability to look for work because I don't get the paper, I don't have the internet at home, and hate going to places where other people can look at what I am doing and panic cause they think I've lost or quit my job.
Yes, quitting outright has crossed my mind but I'm not dumb enough to do it until I have something better. *looks forward to the day when he can yell "Freedom" at the top of his lung as he walks out the door for the last time*
I hate the fact that I get horribly bored at home yet cannot manage to motivate myself to do the smallest things to improve my situation there. *note to Mom* I do mow the lawn once a week now whether it needs it or not. For some reason I can't stand seeing it higher than the neighbors anymore.
I honestly feel like I am just stagnating and I feel powerless to stop it. I did get some mail from SPC the other day so i am looking at getting back into school which is a plus.
I've been writing a bit from time to time which does seem to help alleviate some of the pressures I am going through right now.
On a book note, thanks to my brotherman who recommended a nifty little book called "Anxious to Please" that was recommended to him. It's made a world of difference already.
well, I'm about out of steam and my head hurts, so I'm gonna go lay down.
I've been struggling with feelings of inadaquecy lately.
I hate my job, but feel powerless to change anything about it due to the fact if I quit, I lose insurance for at least 90 days.
I struggle in the ability to look for work because I don't get the paper, I don't have the internet at home, and hate going to places where other people can look at what I am doing and panic cause they think I've lost or quit my job.
Yes, quitting outright has crossed my mind but I'm not dumb enough to do it until I have something better. *looks forward to the day when he can yell "Freedom" at the top of his lung as he walks out the door for the last time*
I hate the fact that I get horribly bored at home yet cannot manage to motivate myself to do the smallest things to improve my situation there. *note to Mom* I do mow the lawn once a week now whether it needs it or not. For some reason I can't stand seeing it higher than the neighbors anymore.
I honestly feel like I am just stagnating and I feel powerless to stop it. I did get some mail from SPC the other day so i am looking at getting back into school which is a plus.
I've been writing a bit from time to time which does seem to help alleviate some of the pressures I am going through right now.
On a book note, thanks to my brotherman who recommended a nifty little book called "Anxious to Please" that was recommended to him. It's made a world of difference already.
well, I'm about out of steam and my head hurts, so I'm gonna go lay down.