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Well, I'm at a low, again. Depressed as ever and I'm fucking shit up again. I completely forgot about my history project... and I had such good ideas for it too. Well I got a half assed version of it done, I'll be lucky if he even accepts it. But anything is better than a Zero.
My mom gave me not so pleasing news about my grandmother tonight, which will have me down for a bit. I'm going to see her tomorrow though so it's fine. Today was quite possibly the most broing day of my life. I did absolutey nothing. I woke up at 7 helped with Matt's papers and stayed awake doing nothing but readin tabs. At about 10 Heather called and Matt was up. I watched Matt mow the lawn. Watched his mom brush his cat. And then Heather was over. Me and Nick played Nightfire for about a half hour then I watched him play Star Ocean (Video Game) for a looong time. Then Nick stopped and left at about 5. Then I was left with nothing. Heather and Matt were there but half the time it's like talking to a robot. They only respond to certain things... Well, Eventualy I did go on the computer around 8 and played on it for about an hour but it was with the nice company of Matt and Heather making out in the background. I mean they just worked out an issue, which by the way sounded like horse shit to me when Matt told me what it was. He couldn't of been so worked up over that. But if so, I was punished as well for being with him the whole time while he was depressed about this nothing. I was with them pretty much for 6 hours alone, which is quite dreadful :o But I can understand but theres only so much a lonely soul can take of it. We had a good laugh near the end, and decided that Jenny was my lover... ? I'm not quite in any mood to love anyone, I just want to be loved. But of course I chase down the impossible.
My mom gave me not so pleasing news about my grandmother tonight, which will have me down for a bit. I'm going to see her tomorrow though so it's fine. Today was quite possibly the most broing day of my life. I did absolutey nothing. I woke up at 7 helped with Matt's papers and stayed awake doing nothing but readin tabs. At about 10 Heather called and Matt was up. I watched Matt mow the lawn. Watched his mom brush his cat. And then Heather was over. Me and Nick played Nightfire for about a half hour then I watched him play Star Ocean (Video Game) for a looong time. Then Nick stopped and left at about 5. Then I was left with nothing. Heather and Matt were there but half the time it's like talking to a robot. They only respond to certain things... Well, Eventualy I did go on the computer around 8 and played on it for about an hour but it was with the nice company of Matt and Heather making out in the background. I mean they just worked out an issue, which by the way sounded like horse shit to me when Matt told me what it was. He couldn't of been so worked up over that. But if so, I was punished as well for being with him the whole time while he was depressed about this nothing. I was with them pretty much for 6 hours alone, which is quite dreadful :o But I can understand but theres only so much a lonely soul can take of it. We had a good laugh near the end, and decided that Jenny was my lover... ? I'm not quite in any mood to love anyone, I just want to be loved. But of course I chase down the impossible.