Realization Sucks Ass
I was talking with Lee today and I was really bummin i couldn't handle some stuff that was goin on so I asked him "when have you ever seen me happy?" He just looked at me and said "you're not gonna want to hear this, but you were happy when you were with Garin." That just really really really sucks. i don't know why, he was an asshole. but what can you do. So i'm sitting here feeling sorry for myself listening to sappy music. So many things have been going wrong in my life. everytime i think i'm going to be happy it turns out i'm not. It always turns sour. not to mention i have totally given up on that whole boyfriend thing. all they do is hold you back. Unfortunally, for the past months i have figured out my worst fear: i'm going to be unhappy for the rest of my life. oh if only i could write everything i'm feeling i think it would help, but all i can do right now is cry. i'm glad that it's almost spring break b/c i think i need some time to myself. well, i'm gonna go. i need to figure out how Warren and I are getting to prom. ttyl