Big Zach and I talked
We were talking and the fact had arisen that i don't act like myself when i am around other people. and i told him that i just can't, there's too much that hurts right now and if i'm myself then i'm going to let it all out and i really don't want to do that. i'm trying to sever our ties b/w each otehr b/c i don't want to have another relationship with him but i do love him very much. I mean i gave him the best 3 years of my life. I'm not sure what to do. i think i'm gonna go to sleep for a little while. ttyl