my affections lie with you...darling.

[darknessfalls04]

look in the mirror. and look myself in the eye....tell myself daily....

"i will get over you."

i WILL get over you. i will GET over you. i will GET OVER you. i will get over YOU.

maybe this is what i have to do.

you care about me. i care about you.

but your affections obviously don't lie with me. i thought they might've used to.

and you thought you knew what you wanted this time. with her.

you hurt. i apologize. why do i apologize?

because my affections lie with you. hurting you is something i would never do. even if you don't feel the same. i will always be there for you.

do i have to scream it at you? do i have to sit and pray?

or do i have to accept this fate.

i will be there for you.

you opened a world to my eyes i have never fucking knew.

made this soul live instead of merely surviving day to day as i had always done.

my friends noticed i had transformed too.

and to me you're everything i never knew. my eyes were shut to everything.

i never let myself feel the way i did with you.

but whatever we are seemed/seems apparently through.

if i could erase it all, i wouldn't. because it wouldn't have contained you.

you're a beautiful spirit. and your cheshire cat smile will always, ALWAYS get to me.

and thats all there is to be said, my friend