A Definate Change of Pace

[darknessfading]

I've gone through quite a few epiphanies in the last few weeks. Let's start at the beginning...or close enough, anyway: Me and Chris are still looking for an apartment..well, actually we found a few, we're just getting the money up for a deposit, application fee, and a pet deposit. After that, we're set! Right now I'm kind of squatting in my parents old house. It's pretty much empty except for a few of my things...but it's cozy. Dakota's been tearing up the house when we're not here...damn mutt..heh. We're runnin' out of rooms to leave him in when we're gone. Not too much longer though. I've got 2 more weeks, then for all intents and purposes, I'm homeless. I was going through my boxes of stuff so that I could get it all organized before the move, when I came across everything I ever got or got for and haven't given to yet, from Julie...so I threw it all away. Every last bit of it. I've done enough feeling sorry for myself...at the very least, I thought we MIGHT be able to stay friends after she fucked me over, but apparantly, as we can all see, that's just not going to happen. I just hope this other guy realizes what kind of person she is before it's too late...either that, or she needs to grow up. I thought she was, but she still has a long way to go. Wonderful judge of character I am, ain't I? But I don't care anymore, really. In the same words that she said to me..."I just don't give a shit, anymore" And I don't. In fact, I don't give so much shit, that I'm getting married. Heh...don't be confused, I am enough for all of us. My aunt is Philipino, and she came up to me a few weeks ago and asked me a favor. I used to have a penpal when I was about 12..13 years old named Jen-Jen in the Philippines. She's my aunt's...2nd or 3rd cousin..or friend..or niece..hell if I know. Anyway, the point is, me auntie's asked if I wouldn't mind marrying this girl to get her over to the states. She just graduated college, and apparantly owns a chain of hotels, she just can't get her greencard to come over here to run them. And I don't know what it's called over there, but she just won the "Miss Philipino" contest a few months ago...so let's go over this: She's rich...She's beautiful...She would HAVE to stay with me if she wanted to stay in the country...where's the bad part of all this? Seriously, though..I thought about it a lot, and decided that I do it. If nothing else, she'll be able to join the pack and we can be friends. But since we'll be married, it wouldn't hurt to try to turn it into something more. For me, this is a perfect marriage, really. I've had a taser stuck inside my heart on ON for so long now, a marriage that's NOT based on love at first...I can't go wrong with it. Oh: KRYSTEN! You HAVE to download "Valley Girl" by Dweezil Zappa and Moon Unit...I think you'll get a kick out it! Hehehehe...

Ah well then...the more things change...