You bring up some great points. Not to sound like an ass, but it is nothing new either. I have been to Iraq, when troops weren't supposed to be there. I have been to many place where we weren't supposed to be. However thats not the point of this conversation. The fact remains, that when I was in, I was damn good at what I did. Maybe some people just have the make up for combat, maybe some don't. Thats neither here no there. The fact that I felt successful, the fact that I was confident, and the fact that I knew it could all come crashing down in a split second made me feel alive. Everything to lose and nothing to gain. The small victories were survival. There is a real connection to the world, life and everything around you. Maybe thats what im missing. I just don't know.
Please believe, that I will not make this decision on a whim, or quickly. However, there are certain things I have not be able to find that I had in the military. I am trying to do some soul searching and figure it out, but its a long, slow process. One day I may find that what I was missing all along was my innocence. While I am on this journey it is nice to have friends, willing to chime in and give their opinions. Thats what I defended when I was in, and what my fellow men and women in arms are defending now. So please, feel free to speak your mind, its the greatest freedom we have.
As for the rest of this conversation, prehaps I can give a better reply after I think it over some. I had a 4 hour debate with my roommate about this last night, and for the moment everything is too fresh in my mind to want to continue it here.
I really do appreciate the comments though, don't get me worng. Please keep em coming if you feel inclined!
Please believe, that I will not make this decision on a whim, or quickly. However, there are certain things I have not be able to find that I had in the military. I am trying to do some soul searching and figure it out, but its a long, slow process. One day I may find that what I was missing all along was my innocence. While I am on this journey it is nice to have friends, willing to chime in and give their opinions. Thats what I defended when I was in, and what my fellow men and women in arms are defending now. So please, feel free to speak your mind, its the greatest freedom we have.
As for the rest of this conversation, prehaps I can give a better reply after I think it over some. I had a 4 hour debate with my roommate about this last night, and for the moment everything is too fresh in my mind to want to continue it here.
I really do appreciate the comments though, don't get me worng. Please keep em coming if you feel inclined!
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