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Monday September 18th, 2006
~everything seemed fine with us...he was happy and like his old self - almost.
~after school he wouldn't let me hug him...instead he put his hand out and took a step back
~I drove him home and dropped him off...about 30mins. later I called him up saying that we needed to talk and to meet me at the park.
~We both got there at the same time....I asked him if anything was wrong...he said yes...I asked him what it was....he said nothing (bullshit).
~told him it would be better if he just told me...said he didn't want me to shut down...Told him to just tell me...that it would be better that way.
~then he said "I just want to be friends." It broke my heart. and tore it apart.
~I kept it together (I'm stubborn that way) asked him if I could ask why....said a bunch of little things. I had heard enough...time to go home....I told him that I thought everything that needed to be said was said ... he took a step towards me and I took a step back....looked him in the eye and said Maybe I'll see you around.
~I cried the way home
After 14months of dating....
I wrote him a note this morning basically saying I needed to know why, and I asked him if it was for another.
This is what he wrote back:
Dear Kasi,
It's not a bother. You deserve an explaination. It's not you it's mostly me. I've never had a girlfriend as long or as serious as you. I don't do so good in serious situations. There was nobody else. I haven't betrayed anyone and I never will. I'm sorry I hurt you. Please don't desappear out of my life, you're too good of a friend.
Your friend,
Matt
So there's my story....
Please don't feel bad for me....I want to forgive...but It's hard...and I know I'll never forget.
You are all great friends too me. I love you all so much!
Thanks for always being there.
~everything seemed fine with us...he was happy and like his old self - almost.
~after school he wouldn't let me hug him...instead he put his hand out and took a step back
~I drove him home and dropped him off...about 30mins. later I called him up saying that we needed to talk and to meet me at the park.
~We both got there at the same time....I asked him if anything was wrong...he said yes...I asked him what it was....he said nothing (bullshit).
~told him it would be better if he just told me...said he didn't want me to shut down...Told him to just tell me...that it would be better that way.
~then he said "I just want to be friends." It broke my heart. and tore it apart.
~I kept it together (I'm stubborn that way) asked him if I could ask why....said a bunch of little things. I had heard enough...time to go home....I told him that I thought everything that needed to be said was said ... he took a step towards me and I took a step back....looked him in the eye and said Maybe I'll see you around.
~I cried the way home
After 14months of dating....
I wrote him a note this morning basically saying I needed to know why, and I asked him if it was for another.
This is what he wrote back:
Dear Kasi,
It's not a bother. You deserve an explaination. It's not you it's mostly me. I've never had a girlfriend as long or as serious as you. I don't do so good in serious situations. There was nobody else. I haven't betrayed anyone and I never will. I'm sorry I hurt you. Please don't desappear out of my life, you're too good of a friend.
Your friend,
Matt
So there's my story....
Please don't feel bad for me....I want to forgive...but It's hard...and I know I'll never forget.
You are all great friends too me. I love you all so much!
Thanks for always being there.