I know now
I found out what it is that has been bringing me down
I feel that im fighting every battle I am trying to win, that I am constantly never good enough for this life. What i was able to fake so easily in high school is now the essence of my failure. I was never really gifted I was just able to play it off, rejected by the "cool" people for being smart, not accepted by the "smart" people because they knew.
I need to find out what it is that I want and I need to take it... but how do you organize a library by yourself when you dont know where to start and you don't have any shelves?
Thats where Im at
I think that as soon as I crash land this plane ill know, i can't go on lying to myself anymore, lying to everyone. Im not happy nor am I sad. All I feel is heartache, pain, frustration, and lonliness.
I lost now what?
I feel that im fighting every battle I am trying to win, that I am constantly never good enough for this life. What i was able to fake so easily in high school is now the essence of my failure. I was never really gifted I was just able to play it off, rejected by the "cool" people for being smart, not accepted by the "smart" people because they knew.
I need to find out what it is that I want and I need to take it... but how do you organize a library by yourself when you dont know where to start and you don't have any shelves?
Thats where Im at
I think that as soon as I crash land this plane ill know, i can't go on lying to myself anymore, lying to everyone. Im not happy nor am I sad. All I feel is heartache, pain, frustration, and lonliness.
I lost now what?