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Depression is weird for me cause I'm aware that I intellectualize too much. I know by not doing anything I get depressed and once I'm depressed I don't feel like doing anything. Including stupid updates.
So let me try to do a quick run down.
My mother actually has called and left a message but I haven't called her back yet, I guess I'll do that after I finish here. We haven't spoken since August (when she told me she wanted my uncle to move in with us and we refused)
We did spend the High Holy Days with my Dad's side of the family. I'm continually amused that my cousins (who are ~10 years younger than me) have similar interest. I'm not used to having anything in common with family.
Lauren has her own crises and attracts attention away from my issues. I'm not sure if that relieves me or not.
Dad never seems to know how to help and then we get weird about money. I wish he would just tell me what he was willing to do instead of making me guess what's acceptable.
Ness and I have a wedding reception to go to for her family next weekend. I tend to have different issues with her family.
Of course I am of the belief that if you have a problem with everyone the problem is with you.
I've gone to a couple job fairs and a group interview did develop out of it at CFG, which is another financial company where if I want to go into sales there's a potential to make lots of money. They will probably get back to me next week, or perhaps not.
It mostly make me want to focus on school so I can go into a different line of work.
I'm only in one class right now (Web Design I), and I'm finding it frustrating where it's really easy, but really slow and boring. It's hard to concentrate on it. I'm worried that I'm going to mess up.
My second class (Database Management) begins on the 17th (fast forward class; 7 classes in all) I'll be missing the 2nd week while doing the 13k... I'm already worried about it.
Third class (Info Syst Project Management) begins 21st also a fast forward.
I think once I'm in full school mode I might actually feel better.
Eh I'm tired, I was going to write more like detailing some of the fun stuff. Maybe later. Football today =)
So let me try to do a quick run down.
My mother actually has called and left a message but I haven't called her back yet, I guess I'll do that after I finish here. We haven't spoken since August (when she told me she wanted my uncle to move in with us and we refused)
We did spend the High Holy Days with my Dad's side of the family. I'm continually amused that my cousins (who are ~10 years younger than me) have similar interest. I'm not used to having anything in common with family.
Lauren has her own crises and attracts attention away from my issues. I'm not sure if that relieves me or not.
Dad never seems to know how to help and then we get weird about money. I wish he would just tell me what he was willing to do instead of making me guess what's acceptable.
Ness and I have a wedding reception to go to for her family next weekend. I tend to have different issues with her family.
Of course I am of the belief that if you have a problem with everyone the problem is with you.
I've gone to a couple job fairs and a group interview did develop out of it at CFG, which is another financial company where if I want to go into sales there's a potential to make lots of money. They will probably get back to me next week, or perhaps not.
It mostly make me want to focus on school so I can go into a different line of work.
I'm only in one class right now (Web Design I), and I'm finding it frustrating where it's really easy, but really slow and boring. It's hard to concentrate on it. I'm worried that I'm going to mess up.
My second class (Database Management) begins on the 17th (fast forward class; 7 classes in all) I'll be missing the 2nd week while doing the 13k... I'm already worried about it.
Third class (Info Syst Project Management) begins 21st also a fast forward.
I think once I'm in full school mode I might actually feel better.
Eh I'm tired, I was going to write more like detailing some of the fun stuff. Maybe later. Football today =)