lonely
i feel kinda weird sayin this, but i really want mom to say that im allowed to go out with someone... i mean, i know hes a senior, and im a freshman, but i really dont care... i wanna go out with him!! i mean, i could go behind moms back and go out with him without her knowing, but i would feel weird, then... cuz a lot of people at school would know - cuz i cant keep my bug mouth shut, so it would get around to my brother, so hed tell mom... or it would go around church, and shed hear it there... therefore, id be in really deep shit... but yeah... if youve read the poem CRY by jizzel, that kinda applies to whats goin on between me and him cuz i cant go out with him... or then theres this one... by me... called "All in the Name of Love"
LOVE... UNABLE TO BE UNDERSTOOD, YOU COULD LOVE ANYONE WITH TIME... ESPECIALLY THOSE YOU ARE CLOSEST TO... YOU ARE MOST VULNERABLE OF LOVING THEM
THEY KNOW YOU, YOU KNOW THEM... THEY COULD TELL YOU YOUR DEEPEST SECRETS, YOU COULD TELL THEM THEIRS... YOU FALL IN LOVE, BUT YOURE HELD BACK
AN OUTSIDE FORCE RESTRICTS YOU, YOU CANT DO ANYTHING TO CHANGE IT... YOU PRAY FOR THINGS TO CHANGE, FOR AN "OKAY, FINE, GO AHEAD" FROM YOUR RESTRICTING OUTSIDE FORCE
YOU WAIT AND PRAY IN VAIN, THE FORCE WONT GIVE IN... IF ANYTHING, IT TRIES ITS HARDEST TO RESTRICT YOU EVEN MORE... YOU WAIT, IT LIES IN WAIT FOR YOUR VULNERABILITY, YOU ARE EVER WATCHFUL NOW BECAUSE OF IT, SOME MAY EVEN SAY YOURE PARANOID
PARANOIA... SCHIZOPHRENIA...
ALL...
IN THE NAME...
OF...
LOVE
always and forever
renne/addie/whatever