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I hate hour and half meetings. but what I hate more is the idea/assumption that I'm supposed to take over for my aunt and be better when she's not even dead yet.
i hate that I'm supposed to be strong. I hate that all I want to do is go home and lay down in bed, but that's so not fucking happening.
I hate that I hate all this stuff.
I want to run away, but I'm stuck here, in this place, in ND and I can't go anywhere. It's money, but I won't even get money this week probably because I forgot what week it was and didn't turn in my time sheet.
EDIT: I am getting money. God bless the business lady. yay. it's not much since i've been everywhere but here, but it is a paycheck.
*sigh* this sucks. i wanted stuff to do, and now i've got it, but it's the worst timing ever. I haven't even sat down and really cried. Off to do stuff now... sorry I really suck at LJ'ing. sorry to everyone because I suck at being a friend.
Especially LeA.. I miss you so much I just feel ashamed at this point that I've been so shitty. We'll talk later maybe when this shit gets sorted out.
sorry sorry sorry sorry to everyone I've hurt, pissed off, ignored, etc....
i hate that I'm supposed to be strong. I hate that all I want to do is go home and lay down in bed, but that's so not fucking happening.
I hate that I hate all this stuff.
I want to run away, but I'm stuck here, in this place, in ND and I can't go anywhere. It's money, but I won't even get money this week probably because I forgot what week it was and didn't turn in my time sheet.
EDIT: I am getting money. God bless the business lady. yay. it's not much since i've been everywhere but here, but it is a paycheck.
*sigh* this sucks. i wanted stuff to do, and now i've got it, but it's the worst timing ever. I haven't even sat down and really cried. Off to do stuff now... sorry I really suck at LJ'ing. sorry to everyone because I suck at being a friend.
Especially LeA.. I miss you so much I just feel ashamed at this point that I've been so shitty. We'll talk later maybe when this shit gets sorted out.
sorry sorry sorry sorry to everyone I've hurt, pissed off, ignored, etc....