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i have gone through a lot in the past couple of months. i have moved out again. met new people, who are cool, and started at work at my new store. things have happened. my old GM (general manager) got fired for sexual harassment, but thats cool, cause i didnt like him anyways. i have gotten a new outlook on life. i have realized that life isnt so bad, i have my own place, my own vehicle, that i pay for, and i have no responsabilities to anyone but myself. this does not mean i am still not chronically depressed, that still happens, but i am able to get over it a lot easier. i have removed a lot of bitterness from previous experiences in my life. holding onto hate hurts no one but yourself. grudges i have held, both for years and for only months. I have decided to let go of the hate, and i am doing my best to find forgiveness for those that i feel have wronged me, throughout all periods of my life. this does not mean that i will welcome these people back into my life. that is inviting old wounds to open. that is like the old saying, "slap me once, shame on you. slap me twice, shame on me."
i have added many people back to my friend list, that i realized i had no problem with. i was just going through a phase in my life, and i am sorry i counted those of you out who got taken off.
i have done some more thinking. also a lot of drinking, and over time, i have remembered her. i wish she could read this, but she doesnt have an LJ, and i wouldnt know how to tell her anyways. I love you, always have. probably always will. no matter how much i try, i cant shake you out of my mind. it took you moving away to massachussettes to get over you, but then when you moved back i found it all coming back again. after all these years, after all the other girls that have come and gone, its been you, and only you.
well, i am about to pass out, so i will talk to you all later, have a great day everyone.
i have added many people back to my friend list, that i realized i had no problem with. i was just going through a phase in my life, and i am sorry i counted those of you out who got taken off.
i have done some more thinking. also a lot of drinking, and over time, i have remembered her. i wish she could read this, but she doesnt have an LJ, and i wouldnt know how to tell her anyways. I love you, always have. probably always will. no matter how much i try, i cant shake you out of my mind. it took you moving away to massachussettes to get over you, but then when you moved back i found it all coming back again. after all these years, after all the other girls that have come and gone, its been you, and only you.
well, i am about to pass out, so i will talk to you all later, have a great day everyone.