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I don't like fighting. I don't like people when they fight. I don't like arguing or raised voices or opinions. I don't like people I don't like discussions, I don't like people holding things back because they know that if they speak up they'll get shot down and sided against.
I think I should stop using the word however and God. I don't believe in God and I'm overusing the word however. I've been thinking of words that I don't like. I don't like the word lips, or lover. They both bother me.
I don't like people who won't let things go. I don't like people making me feel anything that makes my heart race. It's fast enough already, thank you very much, I don't need it any faster.
I've been gaging more than usual lately. We're wathcing 'Eraserhead' in Creative Writing the last two days. The baby-horse-cow fetus made me feel sick. It wasn't the fact that it was a cow fetus, it was that it was covered in something mucus like.
I have a new gage. it's a silver plug that Zhana gave me. Went from a 6 to a 4 this morning. Got a ride to school from Shelby. Listened to Sue start off on a tangent about...nothing. Justin danced in Drawing, Sue made him.
I've decided that I don't like people. People make problems and problems make me want to cry. I don't like nice people. I like people who are sarcastic, sadistic and mean. I like people who are quiet. It's always the quiet ones.
Zhana's transfering from Life Drawing to Creative Writing. That'll be fun. I wonder if Kipp's still sleeping. I bet he is.
I like being ignroed, but at the same time I crave attention and praise from people I don't even know. Like friends I don't hang out with outside of school, like people on the internet, like strangers.
I like getting weird looks. I like feeling special.
Maybe, it's because I'm not special.
My brother's one of those people who should ignore me.
what the fuck.
I think I should stop using the word however and God. I don't believe in God and I'm overusing the word however. I've been thinking of words that I don't like. I don't like the word lips, or lover. They both bother me.
I don't like people who won't let things go. I don't like people making me feel anything that makes my heart race. It's fast enough already, thank you very much, I don't need it any faster.
I've been gaging more than usual lately. We're wathcing 'Eraserhead' in Creative Writing the last two days. The baby-horse-cow fetus made me feel sick. It wasn't the fact that it was a cow fetus, it was that it was covered in something mucus like.
I have a new gage. it's a silver plug that Zhana gave me. Went from a 6 to a 4 this morning. Got a ride to school from Shelby. Listened to Sue start off on a tangent about...nothing. Justin danced in Drawing, Sue made him.
I've decided that I don't like people. People make problems and problems make me want to cry. I don't like nice people. I like people who are sarcastic, sadistic and mean. I like people who are quiet. It's always the quiet ones.
Zhana's transfering from Life Drawing to Creative Writing. That'll be fun. I wonder if Kipp's still sleeping. I bet he is.
I like being ignroed, but at the same time I crave attention and praise from people I don't even know. Like friends I don't hang out with outside of school, like people on the internet, like strangers.
I like getting weird looks. I like feeling special.
Maybe, it's because I'm not special.
My brother's one of those people who should ignore me.
what the fuck.