Let's give it up for Brandy!
I am not in a good mood right now. My mindfulness meditation group leader just called me (at 9:15 pm) after I specifically indicated that the best time to reach me is 4:30 to 6:00 pm. What part of that did you not understand?! Fuck. Now I have to go listen to her fucking voicemail because my phone is flashing.
Her message says "I will try to call you again". Fucking try to call me later tonight and you will not have a good time, let me tell you. I will straight up answer and let her know I was sleeping already just so she can feel guilty. FUCK YOU.
I am very angry right now.
Surrey Place has not gotten back to me. It's been a week since they called my references. Either they're taking things really slow or they are not interested, which makes me sad and disappointed. I sent them an email today, asking if there have been any updates on the status of my application. Hopefully I will hear back at least by next week, cause it seems like there will be no news this week.
Also haven't heard back from Mary regarding signing the lease. It's 2 weeks to move-in date. When the fuck are we gonna do this thing? October 1st? I am so sick and tired of people taking their sweet ass time doing things. Do you not realize there are people waiting and hoping? And then no one wanted to hire me for an admin job. Are you fucking kidding me?! I would do a better job than any of you fucking useless monkeys. Anyday.
Had an admin afternoon today. It was boring but at least it was a break from acting out my fake IBI personality. So tired of that shit. I am NOT that person. I am not getting paid enough for the amount of fucking acting I'm doing. I should be getting a double salary for the IT position as well as the acting role I have there. Tomorrow is Friday at last, but I have O in the afternoon and he has had a couple of bad days. Especially today. I kind of hope he follows the other 3/7 kids we have and stays home. I know it's mean but I don't fucking care. That kid's got the run of the place and as soon as you try to put any structure into it, he flips out. I don't care what the other ITs say, they go "oh he's been off all day". FUCK THAT, he has been the unofficial boss of the place for the past what, 2 years? Ridiculous. We are not helping him at all. We are making things easy for him. With his skills, he would be able to join a typical classroom but we are enabling.
This is why I am just disenchanted with the field. I'm not jaded. I'm just done pretending like anything we do makes an actual difference. Yes, maybe for the first few months following service. Then it's all downhill. I wanna hear a testimony from an actual family of a former client that is now a teenager or adult and see where they are now. If they're not in a group home, I will be shocked. It's fucking depressing.
So this is my little rant. I am gonna go get more brandy. I don't give a shit. I will regret this tomorrow probably but guess who has two thumbs and doesn't give a fuck? THIS GUY.
Ciao.
Her message says "I will try to call you again". Fucking try to call me later tonight and you will not have a good time, let me tell you. I will straight up answer and let her know I was sleeping already just so she can feel guilty. FUCK YOU.
I am very angry right now.
Surrey Place has not gotten back to me. It's been a week since they called my references. Either they're taking things really slow or they are not interested, which makes me sad and disappointed. I sent them an email today, asking if there have been any updates on the status of my application. Hopefully I will hear back at least by next week, cause it seems like there will be no news this week.
Also haven't heard back from Mary regarding signing the lease. It's 2 weeks to move-in date. When the fuck are we gonna do this thing? October 1st? I am so sick and tired of people taking their sweet ass time doing things. Do you not realize there are people waiting and hoping? And then no one wanted to hire me for an admin job. Are you fucking kidding me?! I would do a better job than any of you fucking useless monkeys. Anyday.
Had an admin afternoon today. It was boring but at least it was a break from acting out my fake IBI personality. So tired of that shit. I am NOT that person. I am not getting paid enough for the amount of fucking acting I'm doing. I should be getting a double salary for the IT position as well as the acting role I have there. Tomorrow is Friday at last, but I have O in the afternoon and he has had a couple of bad days. Especially today. I kind of hope he follows the other 3/7 kids we have and stays home. I know it's mean but I don't fucking care. That kid's got the run of the place and as soon as you try to put any structure into it, he flips out. I don't care what the other ITs say, they go "oh he's been off all day". FUCK THAT, he has been the unofficial boss of the place for the past what, 2 years? Ridiculous. We are not helping him at all. We are making things easy for him. With his skills, he would be able to join a typical classroom but we are enabling.
This is why I am just disenchanted with the field. I'm not jaded. I'm just done pretending like anything we do makes an actual difference. Yes, maybe for the first few months following service. Then it's all downhill. I wanna hear a testimony from an actual family of a former client that is now a teenager or adult and see where they are now. If they're not in a group home, I will be shocked. It's fucking depressing.
So this is my little rant. I am gonna go get more brandy. I don't give a shit. I will regret this tomorrow probably but guess who has two thumbs and doesn't give a fuck? THIS GUY.
Ciao.