Caffeine, herbs and charlatans.
I'm beginning to think that not only is the so called herbalist a charlatan (and I WILL expose him, that asshole) but also that I may need to admit I have a chronic disease and learn to live with it or kill myself (cause I'm not gonna live with anything like this, it ruins my life).
I don't know. It's been almost two and a half years. I never thought my life would take a turn like that. I don't know what to do. I have to consciously block it out 24/7 cause if I don't, I break down and cry hysterically until I block it out again.
Today, I survived the Health Psychology lecture only thanks to caffeine. I took a caffeine pill cause I couldn't drink another cup of coffee. It really kept me awake throughout the lecture and very alert and attentive. Moreso than with coffee, actually.
But now I feel like crap, again. I took it cause I was dead tired, I got about 6 hours of sleep because of my exam (which by the way, didn't go well at all) and I was nauseous, dizzy, my stomach was upset and overall I was just... I couldn't see straight. So thanks, caffeine but now I feel like shit. I knew I would though so it's ok.
My wisdom tooth is in pain again. The gum over it is swollen too and I'm thinking I should see a doctor but I also know that it's useless cause it's just growing and there's nothing aside from surgery that I can do about it.
I got the cutest thing today... I had to get it cause it'll look really nice in my "office" when I move.
And I also got some wax snaps that you can melt in a simmer pot that you use for oils etc.
They smell nice...
The other ones are Moroccan Spice and Fine Merlot. Mmmm... and they have many more...
You can get them at Colonial Candle.
And that's it.
I don't know. It's been almost two and a half years. I never thought my life would take a turn like that. I don't know what to do. I have to consciously block it out 24/7 cause if I don't, I break down and cry hysterically until I block it out again.
Today, I survived the Health Psychology lecture only thanks to caffeine. I took a caffeine pill cause I couldn't drink another cup of coffee. It really kept me awake throughout the lecture and very alert and attentive. Moreso than with coffee, actually.
But now I feel like crap, again. I took it cause I was dead tired, I got about 6 hours of sleep because of my exam (which by the way, didn't go well at all) and I was nauseous, dizzy, my stomach was upset and overall I was just... I couldn't see straight. So thanks, caffeine but now I feel like shit. I knew I would though so it's ok.
My wisdom tooth is in pain again. The gum over it is swollen too and I'm thinking I should see a doctor but I also know that it's useless cause it's just growing and there's nothing aside from surgery that I can do about it.
I got the cutest thing today... I had to get it cause it'll look really nice in my "office" when I move.
And I also got some wax snaps that you can melt in a simmer pot that you use for oils etc.
They smell nice...
The other ones are Moroccan Spice and Fine Merlot. Mmmm... and they have many more...
You can get them at Colonial Candle.
And that's it.