Pregnant and Scared
Okay so as some of you might know I am most likely pregnant. This creates a few key problems in my life. First off I don't have a steady income or a place to "live". Second, I am with Ryan and supposed to be moving in with him however if I'm pregnant and it's not his then that idea is straight out the window. If the baby is Joe's then I am still sort of screwed because I am not even sure Joe would be with me let alone be ready to have a baby right after he gets out of jail. I really wish I wouldn't have fallen so hard for Joe when I was getting everything with Ryan worked out. I really didn't plan on hurting Ryan, but something tells me that it's going to happen now. I have never met somebody who could make me feel the way Joe can. Joe can mile at me and my whole body melts. I trust him 100% with everything (which is something I have never been able to do with any other guy). He makes me feel safe and acts like he cares about me. He brings out a part of me that I love and nobody else brings out. I know that a lot of people think what I did was wrong, and it probably was, but I think that being unhappy could be just as wrong. All I can do now is hope that I am not pregnant and that if I am I make the right choices. If anybody has advice feel free to give it.