God I Hate This Place
I never knew so much heartlessness and cruelty could dwell in one place. I never knew so many women could live together and work together and play together and be so seperate. Almost everyone here acts like they don't give a damn about anyone but themselves and when you're having trouble with something or you're running behind they don't give a shit. They don't try to help you fuck they don't even say "Hey need a hand?" I never realized how close and incredibly kind all my friends at home are until I got here. You guys don't even understand, ya know how when we throw a party everyone helps clean up in the morning without being asked? Or mom cooks dinner and we all clean the kitchen just because? Well none of these girls would even think to do anything nice without being asked or rewarded and all the ones that do are "nosiy" and "bossy". Fuck the people here who should be leaders aren't and the ones that should have extra duty everyweekend are leaders. I hate it, this system really does perpare you for the real world though, all the nice sweet kind people get fucked over and all the assholes get everything their little hearts desire. And staff doesn't care! I don't care how many people tell me that isn't true it is and I can see it. Mom, Dad you guys have no idea what a great person you raised me to be, I have more integrity and more kindness than anyone up here. I know how to keep my word and help people just for the joy of hearing their heartfelt "Thanks". Mom whatever you think you did wrong rasing us forget it. You raised me and Nick better than any other kid I've met here and everyday I thank God and Grandma that you brought us up the way you did. Nick and I might not ever be rich or powerfull but we'll sure earn our way into heaven. Because of you guys we'll be good people if nothing else. We know right from wrong and we fell guilty when we do something wrong, we care about others, we know compassion, we know honor and we value a person's word more than their actions. I love you Mom and Dad and you can't even began to understand the kind of amazing adults you've raised. Mon amies I miss you very much and I love you all deeply promise me you guys will never lose the kind spirits that make me love you so much. You don't know how much this world needs love and kindness...I do I've seen it and we're the ones that can give this world exactly what it needs. Nick make sure mom and dad read this entry ok? I love you little bro don't ever lose that big soft heart of yours ok? Laters!!!
~Sammy
~Sammy